Rinaissance(:

yay me, passed napfa!

2009-04-24T03:07:00.003+08:00

For a moment after 2.4 i thought i was going to die o.O! haha, kept asking jia jia some i would think its dumb qns.haha! am i going to die? why is it tt i keep smelling blood o.o! do you think i may have some internal injuries? great, this will keep me from taking napfa FOREVER! wait, i had already took napfa for the LAST time in my life!(hurray!) zzz. funny that i passed napfa, passed 2.4. thank God yo!(: yayy me:) haha. Thank God for jiawen accompanying me towards the end. haha! so what's my point here? my point is, i'm happy that i've passed napfa! yayy!:D

and this is smth that came to my mind the first thing i woke up few mornings ago. is that a revelation or smth? well, i'm not that sure but, here it goes...

There is still hope!
So if we keep loving the people around us,
and keep having faith that they will turn to You one day,
there is still hope!(:
Hope, Faith & Love____.

yup, and so this has been stuck in my head since i dunno when. but it sure is good:)
wait, i think i might know the reason already. o.O whoa.

SR Olympics later yo!
haha, okay, i'm scared.
cos i'm running! O.o!
i think my teammates really dun mind losing.
zzz.
okay, i'm worried.
yes i am.
sigh.
uh huh, i pray that i dun have to run later!(:

till then:)

19th bdae:)

2009-04-22T22:06:00.008+08:00

heyy heyy, so this is roughly how i spent my bdae:) && my mom's bdae is today! happy bdae yo mommy!(: it probably isn't the best yr but it sure let me realised much stuff:) Thank you for all your wishes dears! uh & the presents!:) yayy me(:

&& special mention here, thank you Beatrice for the cake, present and surprise!(: yes yes, i'm touched:) really. love you many many!(:

red words. golden lining.

2009-04-16T18:55:00.002+08:00

red words. golden lining.

there's a difference between having a bible with you and having a bible in you. amen?

this book of absolute truth, gave faith, hope and love to many:)

Thank God, its called the Bible(:

Were not our hearts burning within us?

2009-03-18T01:10:00.011+08:00

lying on my bed,
cun seem to fall aslp.
scences of different pastors preaching flashed across my mind.
the different sermons heard.
the different platinium coated values preached.
somehow always lead to the same question.

Were not our hearts burning within us?

stoning in my room.
didn't felt like doing anything.
reminded myself of the different times i cried out for God.
just wanting to experience more and more of Him.
draw closer and closer to Him.
i see the need to stir up the hunger in me even more.
& i thought,

Were not our hearts burning within us?

something that i'll always do when i turn on my com,
haha, i tunes!(:
listening to the p&w songs,
i'll start to worship Him too.
alone. :)
sometimes, i just felt tt my voice covered the music,
okay, maybe i wasn't paying attention to the whatever songs playing tts why.
but the feeling of going all out for Him, using this very voice He has given me, is indeed amazing.
is the feeling of being whole again perhaps.

Were not our hearts burning within us?

for everything that He has placed in my life,
& for the whatever that He hasn't.
i give many thanks to Him:)
so while running after the whatevers tt i haven gotten,
& also doing my best to multiply the talents He has given me,
i realised,

Were not our hearts burning within us?

the many times i spent fellowshipping with the dear ones around me,
and by God's grace when we are discussing about how great is our God, what more can we do for Him, etc,
and also by His grace that we gathered together to have impromptu PM sessions,
so as we're praying,

Were not our hearts burning within us?

life's never smooth sailing.
so when i happen to see the unsaved people around me struggling to live, struggling to survive, be it a yr, a mth, a day, an hour, a minute, even a second, but still unable to get back home eventually,
it hits me hard cos i see the need to do smth for them even when i think i'm inadequate. or maybe not?
i asked myself,

Were not our hearts burning within us?

i think there must be more than this.
way more than this.
& i want it.
i want to do it for Him.

so as we're asking ourselves this question over and over again,"Were not our hearts burning within us?", were not our hearts burning within us?
-Luke 24:32

yes, He's fighting for us:)

pray for us, he said.

2009-03-08T01:31:00.003+08:00

so many people.
she says" you're awesome!"

she says" i see lots of potential in you!"

he says" bring her and guide her through whatever she has to do even if she's reluctant to."

he says" heal her heart and the hurt and pain she is going through that perhaps none knew."

he says" your blog inspires!"

he says" do you know that your blog inspires?"

i was like" really?" :)

the irony of typing this.
perhaps its the best way that i can think of right now to probably show some enthusiasm despite my indifference towards almost everything.

its a pain to comprehend what i'm trying to bring across.
yea, i know.

this is possibly way more complicated than just crossroads.
is there a double crossroads or smth?

"So when you don't understand
When you don't see His plan
When you can't trace His hand
Trust His heart"

cell ldr shared this today. & i remembered blogging about this quite a while ago.

yea, i think its true.
Just trust His heart and trust His plans.
i know He has a plan for me.
No matter how tough it is.
I will be still know You are God.

no need to think deep.
i'm just typing whatever that comes to my mind right now.
i probably won't understand it either.
But He does.
and tts what matters.

I will read my bible and pray.
I will follow You all day.

i think he said" pray for us."

He will guide.

"Lord, I offer my life to you
Everything I've been through
Use it for your glory
Lord I offer my days to you
Lifting my praise to you
As a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer you my life"

Can i also pray for a red chocolate bar or smth?
cos i most likely need a break.
-run the 2.4 now.

start small, end big.

2009-03-03T01:30:00.003+08:00

start small, end big.
the small steps you take counts.
the tiny efforts you put in to know more shows.
the seemingly insignificant increased in time spent eating the miracle food signifies.
tt's something.

inferential.
i dun wanna stay in a landed property and end up living in an attap house when i return home, eventually.

why wait?
start now.

make the right choice, do the right thing.

its not whether u can or cannot,
its the condition of your heart.

get in track.
stay there.
& don't remain at the same position.
even a tad bit of advancing is fine enough.

but for me, i've chose to run already.
worn out?
He will provide me with the strength.
i know.
Bcos He cares.
Bcos He knows my needs.

Bcos He's Daddy.
Bcos He's God.

you can too, if you trust Him enough and hold His hand.^^

Just a sidetrack yo=p
tian tian is yummy!(: and i'm bloated. feels like just another consumption of a tiny winy piece of mutton will burst my tummyX.x call me piggy if you want to. But! only for now=pp

can i say because its God?

2009-02-20T02:01:00.002+08:00

read some of my previous posts,
and,
i thought that its rather amazing,
in a way,
yes?

thinking through,
seriously,
my command of english isn't good,
yet i'm able to type out some i would say not bad english sentences,
can i say because its God?

certainly,
if you ask me,
i will tell you that i probably dun have as much knowledge as you think i may have about God,
but i'm able to somehow figure out some what i think its inspiring stuff to share,
can i say because its God?

definitely,
if you want me to tell you more about God or to pray for you,
i will probably stammer my way through,
then again,
i tell you,
i have this passion to know more about God and this heart to serve and see Him as my King,
can i say because its God?

& of course,
if you ask me if i'll be tempted to fall into temptations,
i'll tell you,
yup,
i will and i did,
and no,
i dun just leave it hanging there,
i dun just put an end to it here,
at this very point,
instead,
i get up from where i fell and continue my walk with Him,
can i say because its God?

&& even if i'll have to start right from square one again,
no doubt,
i will do it,
and i dun care how many times i have to do it,
as long as i get closer and closer to Him,
each and every time,
stronger and stronger as i walk in this very walk,
i'm perfectly fine with it,
can i say because its God?

haha,
alrite,
maybe you think this post is rather random and ridiculous,
well,
maybe just pure randomness,
ok,
and probably abit of broken english here and there,
and also,
maybe you haven't comprehend what i'm trying to say,
right,
perhaps i didn't too,
even so,
i know at the very least God does.
know why?
Can i say because He's God?

(: (: (:

my greatest desire

2009-01-25T02:45:00.005+08:00

day by day, I know You more and more.
day by day, I love You more and more.
day by day, I need You more and more.
day by day, I want You more and more.

Rain down on me, let Your presence fall on me.

My greatest desire?
*first thing in mind, thy Lord.
*last thing in mind, thy Lord.
*& in each and every second of my life, thy Lord.

i want to immerse in His presence. always and forever.

nothing but You, Jesus.
so know your first Love right, won't you?

& i need more, more, more and more of You.
cos its never enough, aye?

No greater love than You laying down Your life.
For someone like me.
& indeed, spending my life time wondering why.
I know there can't be any greater love than this.

& somethings are just meant to say NO!
its a struggle but i will not give in to temptations!
for now; that is=p

*cheerios'^^(: :)

Fire is burning.

2009-01-15T02:00:00.003+08:00

Fire's burning in the heart because of this passion overflowing inside of me.

& its calling, yearning for more. More and more of Him.

Take up the challenge.

Run the race.

Fight the battle.

Win it all.

Will you?

I will.

For sure;

that is.

xoxo.

What inspires me most is Jesus.

He is The perfect one.

None can deny.

He is not in a box.

He is a moving God.

No, i can't slow down! Because its burning! Its overflowing! No, i can't! Its beyond my control! Come on! Just run! Just Fight! Just do it! All out! For You! Yes, for You! That's the spirit!

Sprinting towards You my Lord! Towards the right direction!

a mile covered, means a step closer to You.

Too much. There's just too much more i need to know about You!

& even if i'll have to run all life just to know more of You, i will!

Because winners never quit!

& i know, I'm a winner.

For the fact that i'm Your child, i'm already a winner.

With God in mind, nothing is impossible.

Because Your grace is more than enough.

Jesus, thank You for being Jesus to me(:

useful bible study notes(:

2009-01-11T05:47:00.002+08:00

Hello! Good stuff to share(:

Why should we read the Bible?
Reason:
- It is not written and made just to be part of the history.
- It was meant to be read with both the mind and heart.
- cos God loves you and wants you to love Him.

Study the Bible with your mind and heart.
Reason:
- To know God.
~ Genesis 1-3
- To enjoy and love God
~ Psalm 119:12-18, 160-162
~1 Timothy 6:17
- To know God's word
~ 2 Timothy 3:16
- To understand the Word
~ John 1:1-3, 10-30, 12-44-45, 14:7-9
- To learn direction in life
~ Psalm 119:11
- To find comfort and hope
~ Romans 15:4
- To let God expose to our innermost thoughts and desires
~ Hebrews 4:12-16
- To become pure and holy
~ John 17:17-23

So how do you begin studying the Bible?
- Plan a study time.
- Pray.
- Read and re-read it.
- Know the author.
- Take notes.
- Make the Bible your authority.

& always remember...
- What does it say?
- What does it mean?
- How will it apply to me?

anw, got these notes from an anglican church, discreetly, i supposed. haha. happen to see it & thoughtful its quite useful, especially for young christians(: (:

Peace out yo!(: (:

yes i will run the race

2009-01-07T03:16:00.003+08:00

yes i will run the race
till i see your face
oh let me live in the glory of Your grace

I.need.to.plan.something.constructive.to.do.everyday.i'm.totally.serious.
about.this.haha.

on fire. on fire. on fire.
obviously.
certainly.
definitely.

this excitement in me that i don't know how to explain.
nvm, just let me dwell in His presence.(:

& even if this race is going to take me a lifetime to complete, yes, i will still run the race. & till i see Your face.

When i say Jesus, you say praise Him!(: (:

He is coming back again.

All glory to Your name, Jesus.

the final jigsaw puzzle piece.

2008-12-31T03:06:00.004+08:00

I was thinking about it. & I was pondering over it.

Think. Ponder.
Ponder. Think.
I wonder..

Why is our God's love so great, so never ending?
What have we done to deserve all these?

Amazing right? yea man, i think i'm really fortunate to have His love.
I really can't imagine how could I ever live without His love & His support.
Seriously.

So when you don't understand
When you don't see His plan
When you can't trace His hand
Trust His heart

man's words. whatever. God's words. something.
ultimately its God that judges you.not them.

Whether or not, I still believe in my mustard seed theory(:

&& randomly, i just thought of smth that i've shared during devotion at trevni pmac!(:

"your heart is like an incomplete jigsaw puzzle, just that one final piece, but u just can't seem to find it. so u tried squeezing all the other wrong pieces which in the first place ain't even part of the original puzzle. Then you realise its wrong and u continued squeezing the next one into the same exact hole.& the next. & the next.... But you just din realise that the right piece of puzzle is actually right infront of you. & thats Jesus Christ. Only He can complete your heart."

I din even tot of it when i was preparing the devotion the previous night. & it just came out like tt. I know its God. I just know it. (:

The final and crucial jigsaw puzzle piece.
Have you found it?

Peas nite peas!:D

gracious heart. humble servant

2008-12-28T02:19:00.006+08:00

Relationship. Mission. Family with a purpose. Zone 5.

Suddenly tot of one of the scenes i saw in poseidon. water is gushing up. no time. just another split second of waiting will cause all's life. take a deep breath and dive in. boyfriend or father? indeed its a extremely dangerous risk to take. daughter didn't want daddy to take the risk. neither does she wants her boyfriend to die. boyfriend decided to take this risk cos the chances of father returning alive is almost zero. while the sweet couple was having their perhaps last sweet conversation, daddy took a breath and dive into the deep deep water. couple was saved at the expense of daddy's death. & daddy chose to die for the sake of his daughter's future happiness.

If tts what a daddy can do for his daughter, what less can we expect from our ABBA FATHER?
His love for us really cannot be compared to anything/anyone.

Trust me, trust Him, ABBA FATHER KNOWS IT ALL(:
Amazing God. Beyond perfect Daddy.

A gracious heart. A humble servant.
A humble servant. A gracious heart.

xoxo.

passion & direction.

2008-12-27T03:38:00.004+08:00

I must be crazy.
To blog and not sleep at this hour, I must be crazy.

Secretly thinking about the things going on in my life recently.

I realise, our God is a genius God. For He place everyone, everything and every situation in our life for a reason.

Just when i tot tt my job had hindered me away from His words, He gave me this opportunity to share what i've learnt about Him to my new found friend during work.

Just when i tot tt my job had made me lose the momemtum for attending cell and service, He made me realise the privilege of attending cell and service each week when i was trying my best to convince some lol customers to buy my product.

Just when i tot tt my job had started to make my walk a stagnant one, He directed me to some of my fellow peers' blogs to read their posts which made me even more on fire for Him.

intentional growth.
the purpose of the purpose.

A little faith in Him is all that is needed for you to believe all the miracles He can do for you.
A little MORE faith in Him is all that is needed for Him to let you believe that you can do all the miracles He has for you.

faith. more faith. a little more faith. & a little more than the little more faith.

being passionate is the first step.
finding your bearings is the next.

Follow the footsteps of Jesus.

I WILL. WILL YOU?

its a now or never thing

2008-12-16T02:11:00.005+08:00

Its a now or never thing.

I'd rather to force myself to change and to be mould into someone God wants me to be than to stay in my comfort zone forever.

It does me no good.

I would rather embrace the seemingly tedious challenges than to indulge in sins and weaknesses.

No pain, no gain.

Learn. Change. Grow.
Learn. Change. Grow.

Come on Rina, live up to it!

& its the little things He sees in you that made you His.
& its the little things He gave it to you that made you His.
& its the little things He did for you that made you His.

A mustard seed is all that is needed to witness & reap the largest garden plant.
A little faith in Him is all that is needed to start believing in the miracles He is able to do for you.

Trust Him.

i pray for you to change

2008-12-13T20:45:00.005+08:00

Its rather amazing how i can change an impression of someone just in afew days time. o.o

Was in the bus and thinking about it. Then suddenly what Natty once told me pop into my head. Maybe there should always be a second chance given. & just keep giving, keep forgiving, cos everyone is learning, changing and growing.

Then again, what if this person continue sticking to the status quo?

Sigh, I really pray for you to change.

Nite peas, i'm off to bed, off for God.

I NEED GOD'S GRACE.
I NEED GOD'S FAVOR.

worthy is the lamb,
sitted on the throne.
crown you now with many crowns,
You reign victorious.

secret surprise bball session

2008-12-11T02:40:00.004+08:00

Once again, without fail, Elisha managed to talk sense into this pea brain of mine. Oh, i'm refering to his "long speech" at airport. He never fails to speak life into my life,somehow.

INSPIRING YOOO!

& me and kian secretly went to pray tgt somewhere secretive at the airport*wink wink* haha. now tt i've said out, its not a secret anymore. Wanna join us in more of these impromtu PMs in future?(: WE'LL DEFINITELY BE GLAD GLAD GLAD!:DD DON'T SHY DON'T SHY(: (: (:

&& today was great! Secret surprise bball session! wat a secret, wat a surprise=.-HAHA. anw, good job Rina.*pats shoulder* good job Kian.*pats shoulder* =p

Thank God for everything He had, has and is going to place in my life(:
Thank You for being my lovely Daddy(:
not to even mention bout I love You X infinity(: (: (:
cos its an understatement.

Rina, there is power in your prayers.
Jesus, there is power in Your name.

Peace out loves!<3

GO STRAIGHT to bed(:

2008-12-01T04:30:00.003+08:00

THIS IS GEN 5.5! (: (: (:

Randomly, just thought of posting this pic up(: Anw, i haven been posting pics for a long long time. haha. nt that i dun have any, but just tt i'm lazy.:P Anw, holidays had been great for me so far(: (: && randomly, again, i dreamt bout having exams AGAIN and feeling super stress yesterday morning-.-" Thank God its just a dream. (:

Dun really know what's with me these days. lol. beats me. Perhaps i'm moving on to the next phase of my life? But one thing for sure. Stepping out of your comfort zone isn't easy. Just to be frank, i'm just typing whatever that pops into my pea brain now, without even bothering if it does makes any sense. aha. i'm craving for the honey mustard sauce from Subway suddenly(: (: Whatever it is, I know God is good. God is great. He sure has His plans for me. Putting my 101% trust in Him! Exalt Him!

Sometimes, feeling down isn't a bad thing. Bcos this feeling of emptiness allows thy God's love to fill your heart once again. To be more dependant on Him alone and no one else. Tts good. Afterall, God is the only one who will be with you throughout this journey of yours. Aye?

Purge away my sin
Make me whole again
Burn within my heart
A passion for Your name.

Last but nt least, GO STRAIGHT, JUST GO STRAIGHT KIAN! HAHA!
Man: just go straight.
Three youngsters: Just walk straight. then turn left.( the right hand side is the pillar of one of the HDB flat anw.)

&& GO STRAIGHT............ to bed:P :P

nite peas!(:

His name is Jesus Christ(:

2008-11-27T02:09:00.002+08:00

Let me tell you about this guy whom I really love aye?:D

He has a gracious heart.

He is full of wisdom.

He never forsakes.

He never does things for His own benefits.

His life was never a smooth sailing and luxurious one yet He never once moaned about it.

On top of that, He even forgave all those who had mistreated Him even till the very last breath of His life before He resurrected.

To say that He's perfect might even be an understatement.

His name is Jesus Christ (: (: (:

IMPOSSIBLE & I'M POSSIBLE

2008-11-22T03:55:00.003+08:00

Without God, it seems to be IMPOSSIBLE.

BUT with God, it seems to be I'M POSSIBLE.

I know you know that its right(:
My argument is definitely not flawed.
Though there isn't any evidence and sources stated here to support this argument( so its a claim? NAH) BUT BUT there are tons of testimonies to prove it. Believe it or not(: (:

THERE IS A GOD & THIS IS THE TRUTH!(:
GOD IS GOOD. GOD IS REAL.

THIS IS A FACT & U CAN'T BOO THE FACT!:D -Pastor Chris Long.

Session today was a big big UHHHH!:DD
Fruitful indeed(:
Now its time to look at things from a NEW perspective.

looking forward to tmr's, erm i mean LTR. lol.

There's always a time for everything. & our mighty God knows it all yo.
Different season, different harvest.

What can i say more for now but to exalt You Lord.(:

footprints

2008-11-21T01:59:00.004+08:00

Footprints-.

One night a man had a dream.
He dreamt that he was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.
For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand: one belonging to him, and the other to the Lord.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints.
He also noticed that it happened at the lowest and saddest times in his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it.
"Lord, You said that once I decided to follow You, You'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed You most, You would leave me."
The Lord replied,"My son, My precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."

-Author Unknown.

Blessed is He who comes in the name of the Lord.

2008-11-20T23:45:00.003+08:00

haha, sometimes i think i'm really bad to my mum. HAHA! but in the funny way!(:

so apparently, mum was preparing for cousin's wedding this coming sun-.- abit kua zhang rite, its only thurs today._. haha.

Mum: ehh, do u think i need to go for a haircut again? note: the key word here is AGAIN.

Me: Huh?! NO... why dun u go for a shave instead-.-"

Mum: -___-" seriously, i dunno what to wear for the wedding dinner.

Me: erm, dun wear anything luh?! HAHA

Mum:-_____-" so what are u going to wear?

Me: ehh, dunno? anything lor. I'm aso not the bride. ltr i end up being the prettiest one in the ballroom! HAHAHA

Mum: HAHA! u think u very pretty arh? U LOOK SO NORMAL!-_-"

Me: Mummy, 这个叫幽默，你会不会?....-.-

Mum: 幽你的头啦，幽塞，幽默....-__________-""

*mum walks back to her room*

HAHAH! qian da rite! HAHHA!!

Till i see You face to face, & grace amazing takes me home. I'll trust in You..

Again, i wanna exalt God for His doings(: i think God is just so amazing and fatherly and indeed i feel so blessed to be in His hands. safe and sound yo(: God gave me thy best shepherd that i could ever asked for(: you, yes you! i think its really great to be your sheep(: & Thanks for everything dar!(: lovesloves.

uh, & i had a fun k boxing day today!:D weee~

& Randomly, it seems like i haven been seeing & talking to andy for ages, when its only 2 days-.-" man, this is so random. HAHA. but actually the feeling is really quite weird not hearing bout you for 2 full days-.-" rite, i must be mad....

Blessed is He who comes in the name of the Lord.
I wanna know You more.
I wanna know You more.

Let's all exalt Him, shall we?(: (:
Godbless you! & He is already doing so(: yes you, the one who is reading my blog now:D haha.

walked 4 mrt stations and countless bus stops-.-

2008-11-20T01:22:00.003+08:00

To say that i'm a blurnut might be an understatment.

Alrite, let me give you a summary of wat happened today after my interview. aha, pls dun laugh!o.o

rite, so i did managed to find my way to the office somewhat. Thank God! then oh oh, here comes another question mark!! how do i get back to clarke quay MRT station then?o.o! opps!=X oh wells, i just continued walking. turn right. turn left. HUH! RAFFLES PLACE MRT! woah. not bad huh.. rite, i seriously need to find a place to sit down to give myself a bible self-study session. But, its lunch hour!:( no spaceeee~ so i continued walking. walk straight, turn turn and more turns. WOW! CITY HALL MRT! OK:D i know this place well. so i ended up at gloria jeans( did i spelt it wrongly?) eating my miracle food(: Sidetrack:Its fruitful indeed. (: times flies. REALLY! well well, time for me to go for PM!:D yay. rite, i need to find my way to the 36 bus stop! BUT, WHERE IS IT!O.O! rite, maybe i dun know city hall tt well after all. hmmm... eh! so many ppl walking tt way! steady, must be the way to the 36 bus stop, erm, or smth other more crowded place i supposed? Heck, wun get lost. so many ppl all walking tt way. erm, yup, actually its the peak hour period.. man, its drizzling! oh no.. God i pray that You will minimise that number of raindrops falling onto my head!=S trust me, it really did(= see, God is amazing! oh! i see a bus stop. eh no, why aren't they stopping? why continue walking?! so i stupidly went to tt bus stop. HUH NO 36 AGAIN!? note: key word here is AGAIN! oh my tian. so i continued walking, aimlessly. eh! looks familiar! this place is.... BUGIS!?!?!! WOWOW! OK~~ so... erm how am i going to church now? wait, there's a bus stop at bugis street!:D ok! 36 here i come!:D wah, NO 36 AGAIN! GOD! I NEED HELP!:( BADLY!!:( ehh, wait, this bus no. looks familiar. BUS 12!!! OHH!! I KNOW! ITS WEI KEONG'S BUS!! THANK GOD!!(: wah, luckily i used to send him to the bus stop at times(: ok! boarded the bus. NOW WHERE DO I ALIGHT!?!o.o WHY SO DARK SUDDENLY! I CAN'T SEE A THING!:( *ring ring* opps, my phone. oh! its HIMBO(: 20 mins past. OH WHERE AM I NOW! seriously, I CAN'T MULTITASK!:(( rite, calm down Rina, u can do it. 5 stops past. OH! I SEE KATONG SC! THANK GOD ONCE AGAIN!:DD & tts how i eventually found my way to church from clarke quay(: (: Really, all glory goes to God. w/o Him, i think i may just die flat somewhere at boat quay-_-

oh, just an add on, i walked past a total of 4 MRT stations and dunno how many bus stops in total. and and i even walk to places like One Raffles Link, Marina Square, Esplanade, Upper Circular Road, Carpenter's Road, North Brigde Road, South Bridge Road, etc etc etc. too many until i dun even know-.-" woah, *pats shoulder* good job Rina, AT LEAST YOU EXERCISED, FINALLY!o.o & to elisha and gerard: din mean to sound so indifferent on phone just now. COS I WAS IN THE MIDST OF TRYING TO CRAWL MY WAY TO CHURCH! o.o paiseh ehh.

uh, and randomly. while i was roaming about aimlessly just now. I suddenly felt that its such a privilege to study! serious, looking at all the working adults walking past me hurriedly, i instantly could feel the kinda pressure they are facing. & probably, its only 10% of it. Money really dun come easy. then looking back, see how hard had our parents slog for their work. and sometimes they dun even show it on their face. Its so tiring, yet we dun see them grambling and finding all sort of excuses not to go work the next day, go polyclinic take MC, etc. oh pls, thats so us.. rite, so me.. lol. sometimes, just sometimes, they may even put on a facade infront of us, unknowingly. look, how tiring that is! ALL FOR US! ALL FOR THE FAMILY! wow, our parents are indeed so noble. tsk, mummy and daddy i love you!(: (: then again, our God is even more noble! cos He made our parents possible!(: AMAZING GOD.

Today's PM was great! Really. For the first time, i went. is it? Anw, I sat right at the back. Seeing all the "big people" worshipping and praising God. & the older ones raising up both of their hands surrendering their lifes to God, some even brought tambourine along. I tell you, simply, this feeling is just so warm and touching. But to describe it exactly, i'm lost of words. I would really wanna be like them when i grow up, when i grow old, and even older. I want. I really want. Really really.
-Even with mustard seed faith, you can already move a mountain from one end to another-

oh, just this one last "randomy", Credit goes to Elisha who made my day today(: cos he fixed my broken slipper. ok, noob me, i know, dun laugh! if not i pluck out ur teeth! ehh, no laaa. tts sin of violence. aha, i will not do it k. i'm nice k. I'LL FEED YOU WITH MANY MANY MANY MANY SWEETS UNTIL YOUR TEETH DROP!:DDD HAHA. He said this is the labour of love. ok luh, thank you(: i'm touched. Even as we dun talk to each other that often already and we may not be as close/good/ or whatever you call that, you're still a dear(:
Tiffy, Andy, Shar, Lin Qiang, Herman, Chin, Gerard, Natty, Kian,..... wah, offhand cun name everyone, you guys are dear to me too!(: xoxoxoxoxoxo!

aha, such a lonnggg post, i know(:

Cos You make me shine, You make me soar, You make me everything I never was but so much more.

MAXIMUM LOVESSS TO YOU ALONE!!:DD
OUR GOD IS GOOD!

sentimental attachment

2008-11-19T02:24:00.003+08:00

Sentimental attachment?

Soul bonds?

Overly dependent on?

yea, i totally understand what's so bad about it now. Especially when you can't even control your tears from rolling down and you don't even know why you did it. I totally comprehend. Especially when you din even realise that you're so willing to spare a thought, unknowingly, and in the end you receive nothing back. I totally get the picture. Especially when you feel like the shadow. Always there but yet so insignificant. I totally get the idea.

Crying over stupid stuff is so stupid. duh, even kids can tell me that! argh yea, this is stupid..

I question myself too, sigh.

Lucky i have God. I have God to linger on to.

YAY! end of A's!

2008-11-18T15:29:00.002+08:00

YAY! Finally!:DDD HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPPPPPYYYYYYY:DDDDD

LALALALALA, ITS OVER ITS OVERRRRR!(:

rite, pardon me:P

was reading some of my posts months back & i realised how the way i speak and typed has changed. Changed for the better of course!:D aha, u dunno what i'm talking about if u haven been visiting my blog looonngg enough(: uh, tts cos i removed my archive(: ANW, yup, i think its a good thing! YAY ME! haha. i seriously dun like how i used to speak and type. In my opinion, its quite bitchy at times seriously. HAHA! so Hurray to Rina for this change she made because she knows its smth that God doesn't like(: (: rite, maybe i'm still not bitchy-free in my typing and speaking now, but i'm changing! Doing my very best to curb myself from falling back to square one!:D uh huh, its really not tough to do it and to change when you know its all worthwhile afterall(:

For this special one who died on the cross for me, I'm willing to do anything for Him.

All glory goes to Him alone(: (:

-xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo-

Seeking the lord.

2008-11-16T23:59:00.004+08:00

I think today's service was great(:

I think Pastor Yang is such an UHHHH!(:

I think I felt God's presence(:

right, I think I cried=X

ANW, the point is.. ITS A GREAT WEEKEND! SO FUN! SO FUNNY! AHA, U KNOW WHAT I MEAN GEN 5.5(: (: (:

I just want to praise God for everything He did. Our God is just so amazing don't you think so?!
Just in case so of you don't know, this mighty God of ours got each and every of our future so well and detailedly(pardon me if there isn't such a word=p) planned even before we know what's ABC! AMAZING ISN'T IT!:D so yea, not to be mean, but, all the people out there who think that you can depend on yourself better than depending and trusting God and choose to believe that your future is in your hands, you can change your future without God's grace or whatever blah blah, tts just bs(: tts so wrong(: Our future is in God's hand & in God's hand we'll find our future. Trusting Him and believing that He will do great things and have great plans for us is the only way.

You changed my world,when You came to me. You drove a passion, in my soul down deep. Lord, to follow You in everything. I don't want to go somewhere, if I know that You're not there. Cause I know that me without You is a lie. And I don't want to walk that road, be a million miles from home, cause my heart needs to be where You are. So I don't want to go.

I know i need You to be there for me for the every step i take in life.

I know i need Your assurance with the every decision i'd made in life.

I know i need Your grace, love and comfort for the every hurdle i see in life.

I know i need You and only You alone because without You there will be no life in me.

I'm embracing this relationship we share & I'll never let it go, never.(: (:

See the fire in my eyes burning, hungry for You Lord.

Thy Lord's love.

elisha inspired me

2008-11-15T02:36:00.003+08:00

HELLO HELLO!(:

haha, i'm glad that things are alrite alr yo!(: though i dunno why & wat happened. but Thank God for answering my prayer(: love You to the max!:DD

Just 1 more paper to freedom! yayness!:DD
come on! Rina, persevere! Persevere for God(:

Elisha told me and shar bout his days back in AHS. it really inspired me(: yea man, i would want to be tt hungry for God as well(: no, even more hungry(: i dunno why, but smthing just tells me to continue holding on to God's hand and something great will happen! YES! even if i dunno what's going to happen, BUT I KNOW IT WILL BE GOOD AND IT WILL BE GREAT! I'm really yearning for a BIG BIG HARVEST!(: & i know it will take me great effort and hardwork to reap that! BUT i'm willing to do it! I'm willing to do anything for God(: I willing to do anything to get nearer to God(:

alrite, abrupt conclusion b4 i go to slp(: I LOVE GOD TO THE MAX MAX MAX!!:D

nite peas(:

change of blog add

2008-11-14T01:32:00.004+08:00

HELLO! CHANGE OF BLOG ADD:DDD

WWW.REMINISCENCE-

RINAISSANCE.BLOGSPOT.COM(:

BAM!:D

just had a looonnnggg talk with Himbo(: cool. great talking to u bro. haven seen u for a long long long time(: haha, things that he told me was an uh! rite, actually i cun believe tt this kinda ppl actually exist, rite bro? aha, its tiring putting on a facade infront of everyone, even ur besties isn't it? well, some ppl just think otherwise. the only way to stay in this crafty industry huh? i'm so out of it alr. yupyup. haha. glad that i heeded mom's advice last time(: loves.

This just gives me an opportunity to say how much i love going to church, love going for cell(: love you you and you many many! this is so not random. aha.

CHEM PAPER 1 TMR! come on! mug on! dun slack! i really hope studying will be the thing tmr once i wake up! haha! and not day dreaming!=XX

& Herman! slap ur face! keep calling me names:( haha! FFP!<---new nick for u too(: go figure! hahaha

One last thing, I LOVE HIM TO THE MAX MAX MAX!!:DDD wanna know more bout Him? aha, come, lets meet up this coming Sunday outside the Odean Katong at 1255pm & i'll tell u more(: want want?:DD

alrite, knocking out=XX nite peas:P

with many many loves from Him((:

the feeling of excitement

2008-11-13T01:54:00.003+08:00

Hello(:

yup, back blogging. haha. just couldn't resist the temptation to blog AGAIN, tt is(:

surprisingly i'm still wide awake. O.O haha, knocked out super early for the past two weeks. just couldn't take it=X haha. NO PAPER TODAY!:D yay! rite, thats not random.. right? so wide awake now! o.o

ok, suddenly i've got this slight tinge of exciteness, or whatever u call it. haha! i dunno why! dunno what i'm looking forward to either! HAHA! one thing for sure, soon it will be over! YAY!(: more time for God(: more time for myself(: i've got so so so many things tt i wanna do pls:DD

this complicated feeling i dunno how to explain. for a moment. just a super short moment. i felt that i'm missing you for real. haha. i tot we were still tgt. aha, tts so not random rite? well well, its the feeling of thinking of you and knowing that i'll see you very soon(: but now, its not you, its God(: God's the first person that comes to my mind every morning now, not you. haha, i'm glad its God(: God made us possible remember?((:

yep, I'll pray for you too(:
uh, & you and you and youuuu(:

with God in mind, everything is possible(:

2008-11-12T23:08:00.004+08:00

Alright, if i say that i'm not affected by all the things going on would be a lie. argh. someone tell me what's going wrong man:( i hate to say this but i really dun like it:( sigh. hmmm... Rewind pls?

i need God's grace..

ok, declaring than i'm so broke! haha! i need to save up!

then again, i can still do many many things without money(:

with God in mind, everything is possible(:

yea everything:D

Cos He made me possible(:

I know my life will go well because He has His great plans for me(:

I know I'm safe in Your hands Lord(:

bless me many many!=))

IF GOD SAYS...

2008-11-06T14:45:00.002+08:00

If God says no, then i will not do it.

If God says wait, then i shall wait.

If God says He has a better one for me, then i will forget about this one.

I know God has His plans for me, & it will be great(:

How do you even measure God's love? Its way more than what you think it is.

Trust in Him.

Doing my best and letting God do the rest.
whatever will be, will be.

One thing no doubt, I LOVE YOU!(:

praising god is a form of discipline.

2008-11-05T08:13:00.002+08:00

argh! u know what? i think i may just fail all the papers! argh! so much for studying! argh! argh! maybe i'm just not cut out for jc life. argh! jiuwo.

then again, just press on luh!! just do my best and let God do the rest!

tmr's chem p3! so dead! rawr! my chem is atrocious:(

Praising God is a form of discipline. Worshipping God is too. and this is definitely a situation whereby i'm going through such a down time yet i know i still want to praise God for everything that He has planned for me(: For He will not put me in situations that i cannot handle. Thank God for all my fellow ones(: Thank God for all the support I've gotten throughout this time(: I love You many many!:DD

& i'll linger on

2008-11-02T03:06:00.002+08:00

Its tough, but I'll still have to linger on. & tts for all the tears that I've shed. Even if it may not be a good outcome. Even if I may have to repeat the same things that I've done for the past one year. Even if I have to attend school all by myself again. Even if all things just don't go my way and I'm already on the verge of breaking down. I'll still linger on. Because at the very least, I have Daddy God by me. And His love is definitely more than enough to be converted to strength and power for me to overcome these hurdles.

All glory goes to Him alone.

For You i will.
For You i will.

(: I love You God.

God is Good

2008-10-29T04:33:00.003+08:00

I'm suffocating. I'm fearful of what; i don't know. All I need is Your assurance. Your comfort. Your love.

I'm standing on the brink and I don't know what else to give. Yet I know that You are holding on tightly to my hand and will never let go. & I hear You speaking to me," My child, fear not. Cos I'm with you. Hold on to this hand of mine tightly and faithfully and we shall overcome the obstacles you are facing. And it will never be loosen even till the end of time."
Cos with You around I know I'm safe. I know I'm loved. I know I'm not forsaken. I know I'm not neglected.

I know my future is in Your hands. All of my hopes and dreams and plans. You gave me strength to live and faith to succeed. I believe in You because You believe in me.

& Lord I give You my heart, give You my soul. I'll live for You alone. Every breathe that I take, every moment I'm awake, Lord have Your way in me.

You're my God forever.

& definitely, Daddy You are love BIG BIG times!
How can I ever live without Your grace and mercy?

The greatest love of all is when you are with God.

tried changing blogskin

2008-10-28T02:32:00.004+08:00

I've tried to change my blogskin several times this week, but to no avail!:(

Awww~~ i'm kinda feeling sick looking at this skin over and over again..oh, you too?:D aha.

I'll see what i can do then. (: haha, oh, i'm so NOT random.^^

ohh! here's another even more NOT random thing to mention--> "^^", see this smiley face like thingy? AHA! actually i've been searching for this key on my keyboard for quite a while alr. but i just can't seem to find it. until now, that is.. HAHA! man, I'm so NOT random:D

Just if you still haven realise, I've changed my "just so you know" msg. HAHA! actually i just happen to read it today. then i realise i was being rather bitchy and mean. so i've decided to change it. haha, afterall, bitchy isn't my cup of tea(:

So what say you?! haha! ok, this is freaky. It reminds me of JUSTIN! haha! Went over to my cousin's place last nite and she told me quite alot bout him when i casually mentioned to her bout me seeing him near Kovan some days ago. HAHA! & Justin happens to be her PW mate! What a small world huh..(:

oh oh! she said Justin told her tt i'm one of the nicest SR councilor he met in SR!(: yay me~ HOHOHOHO. ok, this is so NOT random.+.+

one last NOT random thing to talk about(: I think at the cross is a rather nice song(:

& i'm going to put my trust in God to fight this never before tough battle! Cheer me on!^^

ok, i'm just being slightly more optimistic. Actually fear still grips my heart like never before=X

Press on lovelies!(:

With lotsa LOVE from His and mine,
(:

happy bdae chubby

2008-10-27T06:09:00.002+08:00

Currently at my cousin's place(: Yep, u've got it! staying over at her place today:D

ANW, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHUBBY(:

aha, may u grow chubbier each day(:

I guess this is just part of growing up. this is love. & we love because He first loved us(:
He is therefore I am. So here I am doing my best to brace myself up to face this never before tough battle. Its tough but I'll have to. All for You. & its all for You. & its all because I love You so.

When will I ever win this battle for You without Your grace and mercy?

A love song to Jesus(:

Praise God for everything.

stress

2008-10-24T05:07:00.004+08:00

Is this another futile struggle to nothingness?

When will all these be put to a stop?

When will it finally end?

I might really be suffering from the post-exam blues. Clinging on to the hopes of getting decent grades is tiring and exhausting. Can i say I'm already worn out? Can I say I'm already reduced to no more than fear and paranoia? I'm afraid, and for once I really am. I'm feeling anxious, worried, afraid, scared, I want to move on with my fellow ones.I'm getting scared. And A levels is drawing horrifyingly near. I don't want it to ever come. I don't want to have to face facts. I still want to run. Someone take me away from this place. Anywhere. Anyone. I just need to get out, get out of all these.

Someone take me away, please.
( credit goes to christine)

& this is definitely the time when i needed Your assurance the most.
& this is definitely the time when i needed Your companion the most.
& this is definitely the time when i needed You to stay by my side the most.

part of " who am I" lyrics

2008-10-24T05:04:00.002+08:00

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are..

in christ alone- brain littrell

2008-10-20T06:52:00.002+08:00

In Christ alone- Brain Littrell

In Christ alone will I glory
Though I could pride myself in battles won
For I've been blessed beyond measure
And by His strength alone I'll overcome
Oh, I could stop and count successes like diamonds in my hands
But those trophies could not equal to the grace by which I stand

In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone

In Christ alone do I glory
For only by His grace I am redeemed
For only His tender mercy
Could reach beyond my weakness to my need
And now I seek no greater honor in just to know Him more
And to count my gains but losses to the glory of my Lord

In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone

ryan higa

2008-10-20T05:40:00.004+08:00

eh, nono. i did not NOT slp again! haha! i wake up alr ok!:D felt so tired after tuition, so i went to bed immediately after tuition(:

ohh, FUNNY! RYAN HIGA IS FUNNY! HAHA! i cun stop laughing at the stupid and retarded stuff tt he does! HAHA! imba!

i'm going sch ltr. for maths consultation.

yep, i think i've decided. i guess?

& I'm so hungry now!:(( first thing tt came to my mind when i woke up was MACDONALDS!>_<
YES! I FEEL LIKE EATING MACDONALDS NOW!=X hmmm... yum yum(:

i'm listening to Thank You by 33 miles now.(: aha, random rite?!o.o

Thank you Daddy God for everything(: lovesloves.

different season, different harvest, different companions.

2008-10-19T03:48:00.003+08:00

goodness me. i'm sucha monster. look at the time. and look at what i'm doing. AND look at what day is it!=X BLOGGING ON SUN'S SUPER DUPER UPER EARLY MORNING!O.O when i'm going for service LATER! someone tell me how to wake up on time pls-.-" jialut, I qian da myself>_<"

ANW, i think i should really curb myself from being sucha no brainer.. i think i should really think b4 i say anything. else ppl will think tt i'm giving them hints for WRONG things-.-" YES! ITS ALL BCOS OF U LQ!=X u r the DE BA monster ok! keep LAUGHING at me when i told u wat happened!=( so irritating leh! dun even pity me=( laugh, continue to laugh, laugh ur life away! aha.

& uhh, ok! I'm happy tt i'm inside ANDY's cell(: yay! hello to you small eyes:D ok, i'm just being random. ahaha.

YES GRADUATED FROM SR!:D FINALLY!:DD aha, talk to me bout the great pals I've found in SR(:

&&, i'm thinking of repeating actually.. sighh. i really have no confidence of doing well:( OR at least passing my exams:( jiu wo...rawr

&&&, today is the first time mum said PRAISE GOD when she was telling me some stories of her friend(: WOW YES PRAISE GOD:D little thing like this does brightens up my life pretty much(:

smtimes i would wish to think like a lit student(: aha! tts bcos i can analyse better, think deeper and see things from a different angle(: cos i think i'm really too gullible and simple minded. yea, i dun like it. with all these skills maybe i can understand the bible better, learn more things and grow faster(:

then again, God knows me. He will have His way in me.

I love Daddy God.

teach me daddy

2008-10-14T00:21:00.002+08:00

I feel exceptionally vulnerable. I'm afraid, of what; I don't know.I wanna start all over again!Fear grips my heart like never before. It frighteningly stressful.I guess I need assurance, I need help to get me standing on my own two feet again. But I don't even know if I can be helped on getting back up. And its things like these I'll never say..I'm standing on the edge and I don't know what else to give.I'm losing my bearings in everything.

Teach me how to think like You.
Teach me how to analyse like You.
Teach me how to act like You.
Teach me how to love like You.
Teach me how to forgive like You.
So tt i can stop making stupid mistakes in life.
So tt i can stop being gullible.
So tt i can stop seeing the rights as rights and the wrongs as rights.
So tt i can still love those whom i love even if they had let me down big times.
So tt i can see peace in everyone, even those who always find faults in me.

Teach me how to be a faithful child of Yours.
Teach me how to continue walking this path even with this heavy burden on my back right now.
For You are the only one i'll surrender my life to.
For You are the only one i'll look up to.
Daddy.

For You i will.
For You i will.

special cousin

2008-10-10T03:09:00.002+08:00

i think i really have wonderful cousins(: haha! i always feel pampered and blessed when they are around. ok, this is random. and i think i have this one especially sweet cousin(: aha! CHRISTINE tts u(: dun feel shock, i just kinda tot of u suddenly. haha. i think u r really nice and dear(:

copycats

2008-10-10T02:20:00.002+08:00

I really think tt some people are just crazy! they are just so overly sensitive that they think tt everyone is imitating them-.-" nonsense, no brains, peanuts-.-" pls la, how about saying "everyone's speaking english!! they are copying me!!-.-"!" siao, noobs leh! this kind of people really jia ba bo sai bang-.-" CMI PLS...

starbucks with ally.

2008-10-10T01:42:00.005+08:00

tell me what is study pls~.~"

tell me what is "A" levels pls~.~"

then tell me what is your "A" levels is in 3 weeks and you should be STUDYING now pls!~.~"

i tell you, i really HATE THIS TO THE MAX CAN!!! argh argh argh!!

I DUN WANT TO STUDY!

I DUN WANT TO TAKE MY "A" LEVELS!

I DUN WANT TO KNOW THAT MY "A" LEVELS IS IN 3 WEEKS TIME AND I SHOULD BE STUDYING NOW!!

anyway, i think tt i'm a super contradicting person. just look at the post tt i posted yesterday-.-"
& compare it with the post that i've posted now. LOL!! i think i maybe the most contradicting and confusing person on earth-.-"

CAN I PRETTY PLS REQUEST FOR A REWIND IN LIFE?! 10 YRS WOULD BE GOOD!:DDDD

anyway i met fav ally today!(: & so happen saw all my UAN pals at esplanade!!:D yesyes, i miss u guys LOADS:D & its really great talking to ally(:

i am going to study with herman loh tmr! may it be a fruitful one:D haha! just random, i think herman loh is the funniest person i've ever met in my life! CMI BOSS! haha!!!

"purge away my sins, make me whole again.."
yes, live for God(:

I love You.

press on ppl! persevere rina!!!

2008-10-08T23:18:00.007+08:00

hello hello!(: I've decided not to study today alr. so sian. my world is just revolving about sch and studies and books and revisions and exams and sianness and more sianness. argh! someone save me from this nerdy trap pretty pls! I'M SO SICK OF STUDYING U KNOW! argh! how i wish i have super BIG BRAIN! then just pour every knowlegde inside! HAHA! HOW I WISH TT I'M A PRODIGY!:DD yay!

actually i haven been studying for the past few days. YES! ITS SINFUL I KNOW! but i cun help it:(( i really dun wanna to. it just turns me off once i see all my lect notes and book and all the other sch prelims papers:(( see how my life is being messed up all thanks to studies? argh! i'm so going to play slack play slack after a's!

play play play slack slack slack!!! YES!:DD

then again, life dun always go the way u want it to be. i guess these are just inevitable stuff tt each of us have to face. WELL, FACE IT! AND FACE IT WELL!(: come on come on! WE CAN DO IT!!! RINA RINA GO GO GO!!!! i really think its not the time to give up now. i mean..." We've come a long way, through laughters and tears. We grow as we play, as days turn to years. We have a dream and now it seems, reality is here..." aha, so familiar hor..(: now its the time to buff!( D&T term:D) and we shall continue to sand and buff ourselves so tt we r able to SHINE during A's! peak at the correct time!:D and even if we failed eventually, no regrets, cos at least we've done our best. there's always another chance, we can always try it again. but if we've alr given up now, then we've really failed. we've lost to ourselves. Mr Lim calls this" ur mind is playing game with u" yea man, i think its true. so come on! stand up again! dun let this mind game defeat u!!:D COME ON!! PRESS ON PPL!!:D WHY NO FAITH?! AYE?(:

i know my chance of getting into my dream uni is really small:( but try aso wun die, dun try then confirm die, so TRY lor. no harm aso. nth to lose aso. JIAYOU JIAYOU LAAAA!!:DD

I'm sure that Daddy God has His plans for me(: and it will definitely do me good. so for now, i shall just do whatever i can, i shall just do my best for Him! FIGHT THIS BATTLE FOR HIM!! CHARGE!!

pls persevere Rina!(:

& Daddy guide me pls.

uhh, and to ALL MY BESTIES OUT THERE!!! PLS DUN GIVE UP!!!(: PRESS ON! yea(: ( joke: press on, dun press off! HAHAHA!)

let's all love life even if life sucks now(:
LIVE IT ALL FOR DADDY GOD!

LOVE FROM HIS AND MINE,
xoxo

friendster

2008-10-06T02:38:00.003+08:00

I realise the only reason why ppl still think I go to friendster now is bcos i dun log out from friendster. AHA! haven been there for like months alr._."

Let's MUG!(:

din go for 3rd

2008-10-05T21:20:00.004+08:00

ok, seriously, i'm suppose to be studying! WHY AM I HERE! ARGH! someone roar at me for not being able to resist the temptation of blogging and msning can!!! PRELIMS 2 IS TMR! argh! and seriously, besides stats, i know nth alr!! RAWR! come on! wake up my idea of continuing to slack my life away!! RAWRRR!!

u know, i realise tt going for 3rd service has already been a weekly routine of my life. today i din go, cos i act smart. torn the whole nite then went for first. goodness me, KO!=X so i decided to go home and slp. and the first feeling i had when i woke up from my nap is emptiness. just felt tt smth is missing. just felt tt i've missed a whole lot of stuff. i guess this is how impt going to church is to me now. but i doubt i'll be able to go for service and cell two weeks b4 A's. sighhh... come on come on then start studying now!! so tt my mum cun find reason for me to not go church!!!

& actually i think i made the right decision on going to mum's office on fri. (: all thanks to auntie sophie and AUNT:DDD

& happy tt aunt came church with me today!:D whoots:D

&& i dunno what's going on with me lately. i'm so weird..=S tsktsktsk.

i think camp rocks is a very nice show:D
"this is real, this is me, i'm exactly where i'm suppose to be now.."(:

later.

i wanna grow faster

2008-10-05T02:49:00.001+08:00

I want to be closer to God.

& i want to grow faster.

Lord have Your way in me.

loves.

ipod nano red!

2008-10-04T00:56:00.002+08:00

YAY! i'm happy! bcos my dad is getting me an i pod nano red! WHOOTS!(: thank you daddy:D
& I'm also happy bcos i had a yummy dinner today:D yay!!(:

but i'm also angry bcos of this one person who made me wait like an idiot at the mrt station!x.x
luckily i'm inside the mrt station! at least i get to sit down! goodness, imagine the noob went out of the station, wat am i suppose to do? stand there like a noob?! too much... qian da... roar at you!!X.X i'm so annoyed can! ROAR AT YOU MANY MANY TIMES!! keep making me fed-up these days lehh!=(( i'll stay away from you!=XX

anyway, this is random. i think jeremy is a super LOL person. hahah. he always try to crack a joke with an expressionless expression. aha! understand my lingo? hahaha

hitch a ride~~o.o
HAHAHAHA!!

& last but not least, sorry ALLY for not going today. sorry for ps-ing you=(( ok, i love you(: does tt make you feel better? ahahha.

ok, i think i have a great mom too:D and mom has a great christian friend:DD yay!
& she told me doing prayer is all about your heart. just follow it.(:

loves.

to you my child

2008-10-03T00:39:00.002+08:00

& may you shine out bright one day my child(:

"I took you from the ends of the earth, from its farthest corners I called you. I said,'You are my servant'; I have chosen you and have not rejected you. So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strenghten you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." - Isaiah 41:9-10

& may you shine like you've never shine before my daughter(:

"All who rage against you will surely be ashamed and disgraced; those who oppose you will be as nothing and perish. Though you search for your enemies, you will not find them. Those who wage war against you will be as nothing at all. For I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you." - Isaiah 41:11-13

To you my child, my love to you is everlasting(:

rain down on me

2008-10-02T00:31:00.003+08:00

Rain down on me, rain down on me, here in Your presence i am free...

Indeed. only in the presence of Lord i am free. For He is the only one who can understand me(:

& so RINA SHALL STAND AT THE BATTLEFRONT AND FIGHT THIS BATTLE FOR YOU!(:

come on! press on! it will be a worthwhile race!

& may i rejoice in the presence of You, my Lord(:

I want to get smart! for the fact tt i really think tt i'm dumb smtimes! Literally!:(( i dun like it!
how i wish i'm born smart!:(

cheers to 5.5!

2008-09-29T00:22:00.010+08:00

NCLC!(:
=D
=DD
o
oo
TIFFY & KELLY!(:
TIFF, KEL& CHERLAI
=B

Just realise tt there are more NCLC pics i've yet to post(: HAHA! there there(: ANYWAY! I'M OK ALR! HAHAH! ALL THANKS TO FRI NITE'S THINKING AND SAT'S CELL:DD

CHEERS TO 5.5!!

INFINITY CHEERSSSS TO JESUS

CHRIST!!!

lovesloves.

nclc& the competition

2008-09-26T13:50:00.006+08:00

NCLC 25 sept(:
kelly, me, ally, tiff, cherlai(:
o.o
ally and her ff!
ally, kelly & me(:
kelly, ally, me, tiff, cherlai:D
=W
O.O

aha! this is classic!:DD
the competition pics(: #01
#02
#03
#04

#05
#06
#07
#08
#09

credit goes to vivienne for sending me the pics for the competition(:

credits also goes to clifford for taking all these shots:D

& the others is taken during NCLC 25 sept:DD

lovesloves!

i dun like this

2008-09-25T00:47:00.002+08:00

Recently i had alot of different reactions and emotions that i nv tot i would have. then i realise perhaps i've really changed. to a more emotional person i supposed.

i think i'm being over reactive towards small things like this. but i think it also voice down to the fact that i really care.

i don't like this. i really don't.

peterandy

2008-09-23T03:46:00.002+08:00

peterandy says:
okay..
peterandy says:
i dont mind sharing your burden just so you know
peterandy says:
im not your friend only when you're happy
*Rina-adores Him says:
i know. thank you. i know you'll always be there when i need help. i know.
peterandy says:
when you need anything just let me know
peterandy says:
i'll stay up with you

And i really thank God for a friend like you(: just thought of posting this up. I know i'm not alone in this journey. All thanks to great friends like YOU!

And just so you know too, I would never mind sharing ur burden as well(:

lovesloves.

BOMB THIS CRUSH!!

2008-09-22T22:20:00.003+08:00

ATTACK!! BOMB THIS CRUSH!!! SHOO SHOO~~ GO AWAY!!! O.O

I didn't go to sch today.

Just too carried away by stuff.

yea, stuff.

am packing my super duper imbaly messy table now! ARGH! so messy! i dun even know how to categorise them!:((

I WANNA IMPROVE MY ENGLISH!!! aha, this is just another random tot of mine. but yea man, i really really really wanna work on my eng!!! COME ON MAN!

-& you said you will ask me the reasons the next time. but how could I possibly tell you everything when its all bout you.

jiu wo, i need a long long longgggg break from everything!!!=XX

ps: thank you Joey for ur super random msg(: love you too!(: aha, you'll see this someday(: i'm sure(:

lovesloves.

only God

2008-09-21T23:20:00.002+08:00

Only God will understand how i feel.
Only God will know what i'm going through now.
Only God will help me in solving my problems.
Only God will lend His listening ear to hear me rant.
Only God truly cares and loves me.
Only God will not forsake me.
Only God will forever not change my position in His heart.
Only God will know what is best for me.
Only God will.
Only God.
Only God.

& I LOVE GOD SO MUCH THAT NOTHING CAN REPLACE MY LOVE FOR HIM.
Christians, you know what i mean don't you(:

lovesloves.

guide me lord

2008-09-21T00:02:00.004+08:00

i think i'm not behaving like myself these few days.
so many things are going on recently.
guess i just can't deal with them all at once.
Lord, guide me, bcos You are the only one that i can rely on. You are the only one that i will and shall surrender to.

Especially these few days, i kept thinking bout the "LQ, CMB, SK & I" thing. i think its really going from bad to worse these days. espcially when sch starts. its HORRIBLE!:( was talking to LQ bout it two days ago and i just cun seem to find the right answer to it. argh! JIU WO!:( i hate this man. i really really hate this!:(

sometimes i just find myself being so ironic. Asking ppl to stay positive, stay happy, when me myself is emoing. and emoing over stupid things. argh! Its either i'm dumb or i'm dumb!=X maybe i really shouldn't bother bout it anymore. Right LQ!? argh!!!!

& this LQ! pls, he is super irritating! keep calling me a pig! ARGH! pig head pig oil pig hand pig fingers...PRACTICALLY EVERYTHING GOTTA DO WITH A PIG LUH!!!=(( u lousy hottie brother luh!:( ahaha.

ok, i'm just being random. i'm off(:

I LOVE GOD, DO YOU?:D
loves.

let's win the race for Him!

2008-09-18T21:56:00.002+08:00

Everything to me, its more than a story(:

He's everything to me. Loves.

& i shall win this race for You!

just a minute of tots

2008-09-17T04:09:00.004+08:00

Just a minute of thoughts:

even if i may not be the most fortunate person on earth, i'm definitely not the least(:
Treasure what u have, learn to appreciate what u have now. for you'll nv know when u'll lose them. worse, losing them unknowingly.

God, have Your way in me(:
& I know You do(:

ok, let me it this off by saying: I DUN WANT TO GO TO SCH:((

loves.

ppl change.

2008-09-12T18:04:00.005+08:00

Ppl change. I change too. spent bout an hour, reading the posts i've made for the past few mths. & i realised tt i've changed. but changed for the better??

i think i'm really fortunate to have the company of my maid(: she always gives me great advices(: & always teaching me how to be prepared for this seemingly crafty society. i think i love her, alot(:

alrite, the other thoughts in my mind are meant to be shared with God(: for He is the only one that i shall and will surrender to(: i love You.

For all the fears i have, i'll have more confidence in the things i do in the future.
For all the tears i've shed, i'll make my life a more happier one ahead.
For all the worries and doubts i have, i'll make my goal(s) a clearer and more accurate one.
Lastly, for all the prayers i've made, i'm sure God will guide me better,enhance the relationship between us and lead me to a future i want.

lovesloves*

first day of term4

2008-09-09T02:12:00.006+08:00

Hello, i'm here to make a post. at this hour. yea, apparently so. haha!

Reason: ok, so i reached home at 5 plus 6, tried super hard not to fall aslp but in the end still cun resist the temptation. so haha, slept all the way till 12 plus and thanks to my mum for not wanting me to continue slping, SHE WOKE ME UP! THEN SHE HAPPILY WENT TO BED!!
ERM, HELLO MY MUM, U WAKE UR DAUGHTHER UP AT 12PLUS AM & TELL HER NOT TO SLP WHEN SHE HAS SCH TMR!!!O.O i think my mum is just jealous of me having such a long nice sweet slp. hahah! anyway, she's aslp now and i'm so wide awake. thank you mum. u r funny-.-''

ok, so i got back my gp p2 and chem. OMG! chem totally CMI! goodness. hahah!! cun believe it, but i actually laughed at myself for being the NOOBIEST PERSON FOR NOW! RAWR!

Reason: ok, so the nite b4 i took p1 for chem, i told andy tt i really dun feel like studying so i think i may want to put all B for MCQs. he said tt i was crazy, so i tot, ok then, just give it a try luh. GUESS WAT! I SCORED 10/40!!! EHH! CRAZY MEH! U KNOW IF I WERE TO PUT ALL Bs I COULD HAVE GOTTEN 16/40!! O.O! THIS IS CRAZY RITE!!! THIS IS REALLY SO LOL LUH!!!

laugh, continue to laugh, laugh ur life away! THIS MEANS TT I WILL HAVE TO WORK ON CHEM DAMN FREAKING HARD K!! JIAYOU MAN!!! RINA U CAN DO IT!! GO GO GO!! but again, actually i think i deserve it. cos i nv study for chem. and i read my previous posts. i said i'm not going to bother bout chem for prelims or smth, yea, so i think i deserve it:((

& my GP! haha! i din get U this time round!:D yeah! although its only a slight improvement, but COME ON MAN! WE SHOULD ALL THINK POSITIVE:D YEAH! no more permanent U:D aha, though i dun think i'll score well for P1. jialut, so overall may still be U!O.o. okok, continue to press on!

enough of academics.

actually i've been thinking alot for this past few days. yea, i mean it. i dun think i've ever tot so much in my life b4. so according to my HIMBO BROTHER, tts wat made me HIS BIMBO SIS!=.-" yea, rite. actually he's much more bimbo than me(: girl leh u! haha! okok, but i hope tt u stay healthy, dun fall sick anymore(: take care.

back to the thinking thing. yea. I feel exceptionally vulnerable. I'm afraid, of what; I don't know.I wanna start all over again!Fear grips my heart like never before. It frighteningly stressful.I guess I need assurance, I need help to get me standing on my own two feet again. But I don't even know if I can be helped on getting back up. And its things like these I'll never say..I'm standing on the edge and I don't know what else to give. & the secret shared between me lq cmb and sk, just cun find any solution to it.

the bible says " and now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love." - 1 CORINTHIANS 13:13

YES, HAVE FAITH!

so let me end this post by saying, u gotta love wat u do then u'll have the mindset and determination to do it well:D well, at least this is wat i do(: mind over body:D n0 matter how lethargic i may be, i'll just tell myself tt i can do it, & i'll do it:D

& I SO WANNA LOVE CHEM MATHS ECONS PHY & GP!!

let me spend the remaining time praying to God, telling Him wat i've been through today and how i felt bout it(: till then. bye(:

lovesloves(:

loves

2008-09-05T04:16:00.003+08:00

its growing and can't stop=X what should i do? someone, help?o.o
loves. random.

thank you thank you

2008-09-04T23:04:00.005+08:00

Hello there(:

actually i'm so not motivated to blog. but i'm too bored. so i finally decided to after much considerations. eh, funny rite? waste so much time to decide whether to blog or not. aha!

anyway, i'm supposed to be out today lorr. To STUDY and watch the passion of the Christ, but thanks to some piglet, i'm stuck at home the WHOLE day! LOL! you, YES YOU PIGGY!-.-" hahahha! ok luh, dun make u feel bad:D i'm just FASCINATED by the fact tt u can slp for 17 hours STRAIGHT! HAHAH!!could have gone shopping u know. haha! i know u will see this, ok.. i think=X but yesyes, thank you for being such a GREAT FRIEND YO! thank you for all the encouragements u gave too. and the funny things tt u tried doing just to make me laugh when i'm crying. haha, XIE XIE NI!:D i'm really truly touched(: & i also really thank God to have a friend like you(((:

& small eyes, u too(: thank you for always hearing me out whenever i feel troubled. and thank you for trying to cheer me up though everytime ur way of cheering me up is to disturb me, pat my head, etc =.=""" & ur sister is really cute! haha.

Thank God for answering my prayers(:
Thank you to all who had also prayed for me(:
loves.

cheers'
loveslovesloves. ((:

gross..

2008-09-02T00:55:00.004+08:00

u can just say watever u want of me, bcos i dun freaking give a damn bout it! i pity u for not having the guts to show how u feel right in front of me and gotta put a mask throughout this competition. acting like nothing has happened. goodness, look at who's putting up the mask now!LOL wat?! you said tt i commented tt the guitar sounded bad? i dun even know anything bout guitar, how could i even have made comments bout the SOUND of guitar?! come on, pls do some basic homework b4 u lie luh(: thank you. FYI, it maybe smth imbaly surprising if i'm able to differentiate which is a classical guitar and which is an acoustic-.-" and wat? oou, u claim tt all u want is to perform for teachers' day and nth else rite? not for fame not the prizes rite? oh, then tts weird, how come i received a msg from YOU asking how much is the popular voucher given to us? goodness, and u said all u cared was only the performance. wat nonsense. afraid tt i may EAT away ur share of POPULAR VOUCHER rite?! THEN SAY SO! but i wun do such CHEAPO things! so rest assured, U WILL GET THEM! ohhh, and wat again? the electric guitar? goodness, did u even discuss with me bout using an electric guitar rather than an acoustic at all? come on, and u just went ahead with this LOL plan of urs? so who's the one not showing any respect now?! someone who dun even discuss anything with his team mate just happily go ahead with his plan. u call that RESPECT?! THINK AGAIN! tsktsktsk, maybe i shouldn't spend so much time typing this post. JUST A WASTE OF MY TIME SPILLING OUT ALL THE NONSENSE STUFF U DID! and yes, i dun wanna make u look anymore ugly, since u had alr made urself looked so(: crap, and i nearly forgot to thank you for posting sucha "SHORT" post bout me. yea, its sufficient to show ur childish-ness and wat a lousy liar u are(: oh, i mean GREAT liar(: there's just too much things i can rebut, oh wells, i better not. yes, lazy huh, LAZY TO WASTE MY TIME ON SILLY CRAP LIKE U! and if ppl do believe in wat u say? so be it! LOL, DO I LOOK LIKE I FREAKING CARE? BUT I THINK THEY HAVE BRAINS, THEY CAN THINK, THEY CAN ANALYSE(: so i'm not worried bout tt(: uh, one last thing, if u really feel tt dirty, pls go and have a long long bath(: feel like trash? throw urself into the rubbish bin then(: its where trash belongs to(: i will not even bother to create a 2nd post bout this LAME issue. haha, i dun give a damn bout crap u know(: so watever u r going to type in ur blog in the future, i'll just see them as a form of entertainment to brighten my day bcos i'll get to learn more bout lying and exaggerating(: allows me to see how gross ppl can get yea? luckily we ain't real cousins. PHEW! so lucky really really lucky!

hold on lyrics

2008-08-31T23:17:00.002+08:00

Hold On-33 Miles

I've been there a thousand times
I've felt the rain like a thousand knives
And it hurts
I know it hurts

I've been there like a fighter plane
Tryin' fly my way through a hurricane
And it's hard
I know it's hard

Don't be afraid
You'll make it through
Just call out to me and I'll come running to you

Hold on, hold on
When the current pulls you under
And your heart beats like thunder
Just give me your hand

And hold on, hold on
Until the storm is over
And I'll be fighting for you
Just give me your hand
and Hold on

I'll give you hope, I'll give you faith
And if it's dark, I'll light the way
For you, for you

By your side, until the end
Until you're standing tall again
I'm here, I'll always be here

And if the tide, sweeps you out to sea
When your strength is gone, and it's hard to believe

Hold on, hold on
When the current pulls you under
And your heart beats like thunder
Just give me your hand

And hold on, hold on
Until the storm is over
And I'll be fighting for you
Just give me your hand

Ooooo so... Hold on, hold on
When the current pulls you under
And your heart beats like thunder
Just give me your hand

And hold on, hold on
Until the storm is over
And I'll be fighting for you
Just give me your hand
And hold on, hold on

2nd!(: hold on!

2008-08-31T22:17:00.006+08:00

ha, just came home(:

i nv ever realise tt hold on is actually sucha a nice song! aha! perhaps its bcos elisha once screwed tt song. so i always had this impression of linking funny to hold on. HAHA! ehh, no laaa... :P

anyway, hold on is now officially one of my favourite song!:D

loves!

& oh, YES I'M HAPPY FOR COMING IN 2ND FOR THE COMPETITION!(:

& let me share with you why(:

- its the encouraging and supportive words that all my friends said to me(:
- its the assurance that they gave
- its the new friends tt i've made throughout this journey
- its the bonding tt i had with the 21st, teachers and anyone else throughout this competition
- its all the cheerings and clappings i've gotten
- its the happiness and fun i've received during this journey

of course, this journey wouldn't have existed w/o junliang. aha, though we quarrelled many times over the small issues. but thank you. really. perhaps we shouldn't think bout the past, rather we should embrace the future. well, tts my opinion. afterall, it takes two hands to clap.

ANYWAY, THANK YOU LOVELIES!! BIG THANK YOU TO ALL THE PPL OUT THERE!(:

now that the competition is over, i should focus on my A's. shruckss!!! academic stuff again-.-"

hold on, hold on.....(:

XOXO!

last paper tmr~

2008-08-28T01:45:00.003+08:00

sometimes i feel that being bitchy may be a good way out.

but sometimes i really hate myself for being bitchy when in the first place i may not even be bitchy.

how ironic!

nvm, i think i better stick to the status quo(:

at least i'm happy now. that is provided tt i'm not thinking of all the minor minor things.

i'll be delighted!(:
but aiya, i cun be bothered bout these small things in the first place!
crazy eh, waste my time thinking bout it.
i rather spend my time hanging out with my friends(: aha!

anyway, tmr will be my last paper! & i've gladly decided tt it will be a ti kam 1 hr session for me.

i think i simply cun be bothered for chem as for now.

& u know, i've got so much to type. so much to say. but i dun want to(:

these things, keep them in my mind is still the best(:

anyway, had a nice chat with LQ yesterday. hahah! till 4am!
i think we both are bonkerz!=xx

& a supposedly motivating but in the end turn out to be funny phone conversation with matt before the nite i took maths P2.HAHA.

he will always be my sunshine yo! always trying to make me laugh! but the most ironic part is he's best jokes always come out when he's not trying to tell any! HAHA!

dun forget u said u owe me a nutella plus marshamallow bread treat(: haha!! tts sounds quite gross actually!=XX

SHOWCASE IN 3 DAYS TIME!!!:DDD
let's all countdown and pray tgt(:

loves.

hui hu xi de tong

2008-08-23T15:56:00.002+08:00

ONE MORE GREAT SONG!:D

会呼吸的痛

在东京铁塔第一次眺望
看灯火模仿坠落的星光
我终於到达但却更悲伤
一个人完成我们的梦想

你总说时间还很多
你可以等我
以前我不懂得
未必明天就有以后

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛

没看你脸上张扬过哀伤
那是种多么寂寞的倔强
你拆了城墙让我去流浪
在原地等我把自己捆绑

你没说你也会软弱
需要依赖我
我就装不晓得
自由移动自我地过

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛

我发誓不再说谎了
多爱你就会抱你多紧的
我的微笑都假了
灵魂像飘浮着你在就好了

我发誓不让你等候
陪你做想做的无论什么
我越来越像贝壳
怕心被人触碰你回来那就好了

能重来那就好了

shi lian wu zui

2008-08-22T19:53:00.002+08:00

looks like i haven been updating my blog recently.

haha, anyway, just here to say tt i'm so obsessed with this song now.

失恋无罪

你说我对你紧紧跟随
你觉得疲惫
你一句话就逼我撤退
没想到你说最近选择
一个人睡
我忍住眼泪我尊重眼泪

孤独万岁失恋无罪
谁保证一觉醒来有人陪我
对於人性早有预备
还不算太黑

独身万岁失恋无罪
爱不够爱你的人才受罪
用过去悲伤换来自由
难道不珍贵
一个人崩溃不是在犯罪

你说我对你紧紧跟随
你觉得疲惫
你一句话就逼我撤退
没想到你说最近选择
一个人睡
我忍住眼泪我尊重眼泪

孤独万岁失恋无罪
谁保证一觉醒来有人陪
我对於人性早有预备
还不算太黑

独身万岁失恋无罪
爱不够爱你的人才受罪
用过去悲伤换来自由
难道不珍贵
一个人崩溃不是在犯罪
一个人崩溃并不是在犯罪

孤独万岁失恋无罪
谁保证一觉醒来有人陪
我对於人性早有预备
还不算太黑

独身万岁失恋无罪
爱不够爱你的人才受罪
用过去悲伤换来自由
难道不珍贵
一个人崩溃并不是在犯罪
一个人崩溃并不是在犯罪

strongly encourage u guys to listen to this song!
THE VOCAL IS POWERFUL!!O.o!

till then(:
loves.

prelim in 1 day time

2008-08-16T23:43:00.004+08:00

believe it or not. i just came back from a basketball session with my maid(:

haha, Rina's starting to enjoy it though she dun even know if this feeling may last.=P

prelim in 1 day time.

cun wait for it to end.

cun wait for A's to end.

cun wait to get back all my U papers for prelim.

hah! all my friends are mugging like hell and here i am telling myself i'm gonna get U for all the prelim papers. wat a JOKE.

I'M SO NOT MOTIVATED TO MUG! ARGH!

& HERE'S THE IRONIC PART. I JUST RECEIVED THE SUPPOSEDLY MOTIVATING LETTER WEAPON FROM SCH.

-.="

& uh, newmoon's chicken essence is so useless. i drank it b4 tuition. but it doesn't seem to work=X its either its lousy OR i'm immune to it. -.-

i need inspiration.

i'm always finding trouble for myself. haha, dumb me.

by putting this friendship at stake, any econs student will say tt its a high opportunity cost=X haha

silly me for being jia ba bo sai bang-.-

HAHAHAHAHAH, if u know wat i mean(:

a God's child.
loves.

-Your decision is wat leads you to your choice(:

swimming pool-.-

2008-08-15T23:41:00.002+08:00

Let's make this short and sweet(:

SUMMARY:

Sharilyn. Andy. Elisha. Me. Lunch. Supermarket. Andy's house. Study. Alicia. Bunny.Piglet.(:. Dinner. Swimming pool. Fun. Laugh. Act smart. Clown. Pics. Video. Home. Olympics. Table tennis. YEAH!:D. Tired.

not bad. quite lucid(:

ohoh, SORRY TO TROUBLE U SHUANG HUI!!! THANK YOUR DAD FOR ME YOO!!!:DDD LOVES!

siannes, got chem tuition tmr=XX sighhhh!

HATE EXAMS!!!=xx

GREAT DAY!!!:D
LOVESLOVES!

godbless!(:

HUGE BUG!!!!

2008-08-13T22:51:00.002+08:00

first and foremost, let me shock myself by saying TODAY IS SCARY!!!!=XX

OK, NOW I TELL U WHY!

left sch at bout 9 plus, with junliang and elisha. junliang crossed the road while elisha and i went to the same bus stop to wait for our bus. so we talked bout some random stuff, JUST THEN! THIS FREAKING GIGANTIC HUGE HUGE HUGE BUG CAME FLYING BY! initially it was somewhere near elisha's head( elisha just ignored-.-""),then it just suddenly changed its direction and flew towards me! MY OH MY!!! I SCREAM LUH! then run away! and wat a noob me-.-" guess where did i run to? ELISHA'S BACK! as though got use like tt. LOL! but i was damn frightened! and i kinda used elisha as the shield-.-" the whole incident thinking back is damn funny, but i was damn scared at tt point of time. GOODNESS! the best part! all the rest of the ppl at the bus stop(most of them SRJCians) LAUGH AT ME LUH! WAH! IMABLY PAISEH!!!!=XXX so i began searching for the bug. was so afraid tt it will cling on my bag or clothes, etc.. panic panic!! then elisha just went like: aiya, relax man. the thing isn't on you luh. it is so big, it will sure move around one.. lets go sit down" so we went. just nice elisha's bus was here. so he went off first. so i wanted to take out my phone. GUESS WAT! THE LOL BUG WAS CLINGING ON MY BAG'S ZIP LUH!! then bcos i touched the zip, it climb onto my finger! goodness me!! i immediately fling it off and it drop right in the middle of the bus lane. then... a car came by and went over it-.-" tadah! i guess its dead alr=XX so u think its a good thing or a bad thing? i dunno!=X i killed it indirectly:S

oh my tian, jiu wo! first time in my 18 yrs of life, i've seen such a enormous bug!!! wahseh! machiam like strike 4D, nono, 4E!!===> eeek! eeek! eeek! eeek!4E-.-"" cold joke not bad huh? haha!! anyway, i think i'm fine alr. just... still in a bit or trauma~ haha!

irritating bug! scare me! make me throw face!! rawr!! :S

anyway, i think i'm going to go sch tmr and study!!!:D

jiayou jiayou!!!

Rina gogogo~!!

ok, tts all for today. lazy to type. though got quite alot to update. but nvm luh.haha

ciao! godbless(:

爱因为在心中

2008-08-12T23:24:00.002+08:00

爱因为在心中

当我睁开双眼每一天
都会记得大家的笑脸
明白心中勇敢又多了一点

曾经哭泣也会看不见
未来总会有别的喜悦
就让时间翻开崭新的一页

你的音符你的脸
有种无声的语言
教我不退缩要坚持著信念

用音符画一个圈
经过都会被纪念
我想爱永远会留在你心间

每个人都拥有一个梦
即使彼此不相同
能够与你分享
无论失败成功都会感动
爱因为在心中
平凡而不平庸
世界就像迷宫
却又让我们此刻相逢our home

伤心时你会给我笑脸
让我感受友爱的原点
快乐地过有风有雨的岁月

失望和伤心在所难免
都会经历漫长的严寒
让这一切在我们心中沉淀

用旋律写张信签
放入你的心褃面
手牵手记录我们爱的和弦

用音符画一个圈
经过都会被纪念
我想爱永远会留在你心间

nat, thx for the song

2008-08-12T17:32:00.001+08:00

Thank you Nathanael for the song(:

loves!

MADE IT TO THE FINALS!

2008-08-11T22:16:00.001+08:00

OH OH! DID I MENTION I MADE IT INTO THE FINALS?! :DD

& TT MEANS I WILL BE PERFORMING ON TEACHERS' DAY YO!!!:DD

THANK YOU FOR ALL YOUR VOTES LOVELIESSS!!!:DDDD

LOVESLOVES!!

one wk b4 prelims

2008-08-11T22:02:00.002+08:00

went to sch to study today. haha, in the end studied with LQ(:

did some "stunts" tt i would nv expect myself to accomplish:D

hehheh!(: I MANAGED TO CLIMB UP THE BOUT 1 PLUS 2 METRES CEMENT WALL WITH THE HELP OF LQ YO!!!:DD

oh my tian! its really scary! but well, i did it!! and damn, i look damn noob during the whole climbing up and jumping down process! should have video it down!! HAHA!!

uh, and i aso went to try doing pull ups at the pull up bar! guess wat!!? i cun even grab hold of the bar luh!!! LOLNESS! i swear its damn retarded!! & freaking LQ was laughing at me throughout!! LOUDLY SOMEMORE! OMG~ jiu wo!:S so paiseh!! hahahha, well, i admit, actually i laughed at my noobness too!:D haha! this kinda of fitness stuff just ain't my cup of tea yo!

studied till 6 plus then went home. oh my tian~! i'm feeling damn scared! damn stressful NOW ! argh! how i wish i've alr covered all the topics but i'm still in J1 and A's is next yr ! got like one full yr to revise!! haha!!

duh! NO TIME NO TIME=XX

& the best part is, i can still blog-.=" how ironic.

guess its really true tt when i'm stress, i'm a totally S!! haha!( the DISC test)

okie dokie! off i go. sianness has dawned upon me when it comes to mugging!:(

love from His and mine(:

first econs tuition

2008-08-10T23:52:00.002+08:00

stone. stone. stone.

so i had my very first econs tuition today. heh. erm, no comments. still super bad at econs yo!!! damn damn bad!:((

anyway, today is really funny!

elisha called me at 10 plus to wake me up so tt i wun be late for service today. apparently, i kap his phone call by accident and slept all the way till 12noon. haha! so happen andy called. he said he just woke up too!! HAHA!!! my head is a pig~! HE INFLUENCE ME TOO MUCH! YEA! TTS TOO MUCH! haha!!:D

reached church at bout 2pm. in the end left at bout 245pm.:( man! cos got tuition!!:( today's service is really fun luh!!! did the JESUS cheer!! whoots!!I LIKE YOOO!!:DD pity gotta leave early!!:S

anyway i went to get my specs after tuition! oh my!!:D its good:D heh! so next time when u see me, pls call me a good nerd yo!:D

was telling my mom tt maybe i want to repeat yr 2. cos i damn scared i dun do well for a's. then my mom suggested me to go private uni instead..

me: nah, i duan. its expensive. moreover, those ppl who made it there are mostly slackers. i dun wanna slack anymore. and no shuai ge!!:S and even if i graduate alr, ppl aso will nt recognise my cert. no point!:(

mom: but those who can afford to go private uni are all rich:D

* speechless*

Conclusion: all tt concerns my mom is just $$$$ money face! heh!

tts the end of our conversation bout my future yo! hah!

and uh, my dog looks like a sailor now! haha!! my maid bathe her today! and she change her clothes to the sailor suit! HAHA!! with the sailor tie! HAHA! GG look damn lol and cute now! HAHA!(: lovesloves yo!!!:DD

& today, i just got to know shin ee's blog! HAHA! going to link u crabmeat ball!!!:D stop calling my pig head!:X so not luh! HAHA

i feel so not right. not left. not up. not down. nvm~

GDBYE!

godbless(:

happy daddy's bdae

2008-08-09T22:46:00.002+08:00

HELLO!:D

ok, so i had my very first chem tuition today=X

guess wat?! HAHA! the teacher say i'm bright, a fast learner!! LOL!!

REASON BEING: THINGS TT SHE TAUGHT TODAY I KNEW THEM LONG AGO!!! LOL!! keep telling her to fasten the pace and teach me more advance things but she just keep saying listen to me, listen to me...-.-"" LOL, she wasted 1.5 hrs of my time-.=" anyway, i think she's quite good:D

tmr aso got tuition=X jialut, i'm turning into a mugger~ i hope i do improve yo!!:S

NO TIME NO TIME!

okok, back to yesterday..

1) u know, i just cun stand some ppl in sch. they are just simply..ARGH!
they think they r popular, they think they are sociable. LOL! come on, FYI, u guys dun even have some basic courtesy yo! stop rolling ur eyes! b4 they really drop out!! HA! HA! HA! HA! HA!!!!!!

2) i just realised there quite a number of cute guys in sch:D heh

3) saw lotsa of pretty gals in sch yesterday as well:D

4) i just like mrs phay more more and more! oh my tian! she was imba+classic yesterday luh!!! HAHAHAHA! me and LQ cun stop laughing when we saw her on stage man!!! HAHA!!

5) i'm sick:( really really sick:( sighhh...

6) i met andy while i was out with some of the 21st yesterday(:

7) THANK YOU MS LOW FOR UR MANY MANY VOTES:DD

8) miss ng look damn cute on stage!:D

9) MRS SIM AS WELL:D

10) LAST BUT NOT LEAST HAPPY DADDY'S BIRTHDAY!!!!!:DD

so many random things to blog yo! but nah, dun think i want to. haha!(:

RINA GO GO GO!!!:D

lovesloves(:

thanks giving

2008-08-08T23:30:00.003+08:00

oh my tian! thanksgiving was awesome luh!:D i totally laughed and cheered like siao man!!

went out with some of the 21st to have dinner(:had a great talk with them yo:D haha!!

JIAYOU 21ST!!:D

thank you thomas for being the PSK!! thank you bodoh!! haha! u this lousy junior! hahahah!!

& my gorilla!!! u aso!!:( but nvm luh, i forgive u. cos u r my pet! HAHA:D

OH AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY IBRAHIM!!:D

u this mickey mouse face!!! HAHA! retarded face!! HAHA!!!:D

i hope i did fine in the competition=X damn, my throat is killing me:(

STILL HAVING BAD SORE THROAT!!!:((((

uh, i din know Rex stay so close my place. haha!! nice talking to u yo!!:D

& so irritating luh!!! my cam got NO battery:( if not can take MANY MANY MANY PICS:(

sighh, nvm.
:S

let's pray tt my sorethroat dun get any worse:(

okok, going off:D
blog more next time.tired.

SAYONARA!!:D

the competition tmr

2008-08-07T22:46:00.003+08:00

tired tired.

studied with elisha today. haha, actually we din really study much. cos both got distracted. haha! opps=XX ok, we laugh alot today:D haha!!

the competition is tmr!!=XX pray hard i'll do fine!!:S

having sore throat now yo:( and its pretty bad:(

man! i hope it will be better tmr morning:(

jiayou jiayou!!

let me get into the mood for studying!!!:D

chiong man!!!

loves.

chem test die!

2008-08-06T22:22:00.002+08:00

BYE BYE CHEM TEST DAY!

HELLO PHYSICS EXTRA LESSON DAY!!:SS

oh wells, looks like tmr is another MUST GO SCH day for me yo!

reason being? -.=" obvious yo!

GOT PHYSICS TMR!!!! just in case u r still wondering wats my reason for a must to go sch every tue and thur. there. here it is:D

sometimes i would really wanna be in my own world! haha! well, at least i wun have to think for others first b4 myself(:

fri fri fri!!! fri is the last round of audition!!! i'm so scared! argh! just pray super super hard tt we do make it=X its tough though...

but well, for some reason again, i will give my best shot!! try luh! HAHAHAH!(:

uh, just smth random yo.

i think some guys are really pretty cute and charming IF they know how to dress up and be a little MORE image conscious(: i'm serious:DD

uh, guys really shouldn't have LONG finger nails(: hello, this long finger nail thing should only be a privilege for GIRLS??! guys with LONG FINGER NAILS LOOK DIRTY!!! so unhygienic!!:S

haha! anyway, i'm going to have tuition alr yo!must jiayou!!:S

and i'm making specs!! this time for real!!:(
sighhh...

so long....

loves.

grp 2 7 and periodicity test tmr:X

2008-08-05T21:44:00.002+08:00

GOOD BYE STRESSFUL DAY!
HELLO CHEM LECT TEST DAY:S

die luh die luh, chem so cmi!!

Need to throw everything regarding periodicity grp 2 and 7 in this PEA brain of mine!!!=XX

i need a BIG FAT BRAIN!!:(

i was telling my maid tt i feel like naming my bunny miu miu now:D

then her reaction was:"oh no! miu miu sounds like a cat! think of another name luh!"

haha, name it HH!! cos my dog's name is GG!!O.o

funny and lame luh she!:X

lovesssss.

early leave

2008-08-04T21:37:00.004+08:00

took early leave today. cos i'm sick.
for the first time in my life i took early leave(: haha

went to the polyclinic, goodness, so many ppl. oh wells, with the company of my maid, its pretty fine(:

doc wanted to give me 2 days mc.. but i was nice(: i told her 1 day is sufficient(: anyway, no matter wat, i will be going sch tmr. cun afford to miss lessons alr,especially tue and thurs(: haha, the reason is really lame actually! oh wells.

wat's my aim in life?

i always tot its working towards SMU's business course.

but looks like i need to have a more realistic plan. simple bcos with my grades and knowledge now, SMU wun want me and i doubt any other uni would want me either:(

I NEED PLAN B!
PLAN C!
OR EVEN PLAN D!!

maybe i may choose to repeat another yr, or even go overseas.

losing my bearings:(

我的未来是个未知数:(

really hate studying yo!
its like u know you're alr putting in much more effort than usual, but somehow the results doesn't show & ppl see u based on the results u produce. argh, practical ppl. practical world.

looks determine the kind of ppl u r.. yes, trust me, its definitely true to a certain extentO.o

set my own limitations, get out of my comfort zone!

some ppl just dunno how fortunate they are.

God, guide me(:

loves.

will run]

2008-08-03T14:22:00.003+08:00

okok, so ask me why am i blogging at this hour?! i should be at church rite!! there's service going on! argh! simply bcos i over slept-.=" i act smart luh! after running 13km yesterday, i tot i still full of energy, went for luch with elisha. then dwayne came along too. then met up with andy. then we went for cell. after cell, still went to have dinner with cell ppl. then went home. but before i even reached home, i've decided to go out again. HAH! went out with my maid to get all the stuff tt i wanted(: then shop around.. then went to rent the L change the world movie. went home and watch(: then K.O until now!! so dumb for acting smart! could have gone for service:(

now my body is really aching:( i dun feel anything yesterday luh! HAHA!! i think i'm strong!:D

& thank you for all the ppl who have cheered for me yo!!:D especially my gorilla:D HAHA!! he so funny luh!! HAHA!!

lovesloves(:

amazed tt i can run 13KM! whoots:DD

bunny is loved:D

2008-08-01T23:06:00.002+08:00

hello!(:

just came home. haha, have been coming home quite late recently. haha!

today! i literally slack my whole day away!! HAHA!! i had like hmmm... 10 HRS OF NONSENSE!!! HAHAH!!! but oh wells, its fun:DD yeah!(: hahahha!!!

played with yongshen the whole day luh!(: HE'S SOOO CUTE!:D my bunny yeah my bunny!:D

went for dinner with andy elisha and gerard(: HAHA! its fun yo!:D elisha taught me how to sing when u come home properly. i hope i can=XX anyway, after tt went to white tangerine to chill for a while. listening to the live performance there(: eh, quite good man!!:D shall go there more often yo!!:D

then elisha, andy and gerard went to play bb ball. me and yongshen sat there watching and looking after their belongings~:( i feel like maid. hahaha!! no la kidding~:D not like i would wanna play=XX

tmr's going to be a tiring day yo!!! JIAYOU JIAYOU!!! wIll run here i come:S i hope tt i can complete 10 km pls!!!:( rawr!!!!!

BUNNY IS LOVED:DD

bye~

ps: my dog is really irritating!!! rawr! brat=XX

william tan

2008-07-31T22:13:00.002+08:00

just came home not long ago.

cousin! glad tt we got in!!:D YEAH! HAHA!!

& dun repeat history!! NONONONO!!(:

studied with sya, est lyd and elisha today(: uh! and yongshen!! :D HAHA!!

went to sch bcos of dr william tan's talk actually(: haha! glad tt i went yo!:D

learnt much:D

I ASPIRE TOBE AS DETERMINE AS HIM:D

JIAYOU JIAYOU!!

SAY RINA RINA GO GO GO!:DD

LOVESLOVES(:

bunny

2008-07-30T21:59:00.002+08:00

Tired! Sleepy! BUT GREAT DAY:DD woohooo!!:DD

i'm so dead beat!

but today is a funny day!! HAHA! had a great laughing session with elisha and shar(: too bad andy had tuition!LOL.

anw, TO LINQIANG, SHIN EE, ANDY AND ELISHA: STOP TORTURING MY BUNNY ALRITE!! HE'S CUTE AND PITYFUL!:(

btw, the last name i gave bunny today is yongshen(: our beloved president's name:D
HAHAHAH!!

will give him more names tmr:DD
till then, GDBYE:D

ps: listen to the 2 songs!! nicenice:DD

LOVESLOVES

stop copying me!

2008-07-29T21:52:00.002+08:00

DECLARATION!!!

I HATE PPL FOR BEING COPYCATS! SO STOP COPYING MY LINGO! U YES U! I HOPE U KNOW WHO U R!!! STOP STOP STOP! ITS IRRITATING!!! CRAP!

gdbye!

reaching for you

2008-07-28T23:18:00.001+08:00

Reaching for You(:

I can't believe the way
Your love has got a hold on me
Each morning I wake to find You near
You lift me above my fears
And set my feet on solid ground
All of my days belong to You

And I breathe in Your breath of life that fills my heart
You are my all consuming fire

I stand here before You
In wide opened wonder
Amazed at the glory of You
The power of heaven
Revealing Your purpose in me
As I'm reaching for You

imagine me without you lyrics

2008-07-28T23:07:00.002+08:00

Imagine me without you(:

As long as stars shine down from heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
Till the end of time forever
You’re the only love I’ll need

In my life you’re all that matters
In my eyes the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You’re the one whose there for me
When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you

Chorus:
Imagine me without you
I’d be lost and so confused
I wouldn’t last a day, I’d be afraid
Without you there to see me through

Imagine me without you
Lord, you know it’s just impossible
Because of you, it’s all brand new
My life is now worthwhile
I can’t imagine me without you

When you caught me I was falling
You’re love lifted me back on my feet
It was like you heard me calling
And you rush to set me free

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you

Chorus

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you oh

Chorus

I can’t imagine me without you

random

2008-07-28T22:33:00.002+08:00

i think i'm really dying~ argh like literally!:(

haha! actually i think i'll be perfect if i dun have to study!!:DD

really hate it! argh!

nvm, RINA RINA GO GO GO!!!:DD ( haha! say tt to me in the future u see me:DD) will be greatly appreciated:DD

press on yoooo!!!!

someone/anyone find my batteries for me PLS:DD

ohoh!! anyway, i named my bunny after someone's name today!:DD HAHAH!!(: yeah!
(actually my bunny has quite a few names now-.=)hahah!

JIAYOU EVERYONE!:D

& i've decided! to lessen my time spent infront of the com!:D try try try!! argh!

& today is like finally a day when i took nap! wah! how many years ago was my last nap!?:(
i miss pri/sec sch life:( can slack all the way~

haha, imagine i can turn time back, i will be a prodigy!!:DDD

okok, ciao ppl(:
i'm going to find some other random stuff to do yo!:D

LOVESLOVES(:

cry-mandy moore

2008-07-27T15:42:00.001+08:00

CRY-mandy moore

I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended too soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed

In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry
The moment that I saw you cry

It was late in september
And I've seen you before (and you were)
You were always the cold one
But i was never that sure
You were all by yourself
Staring at a dark gray sky
I was changed

In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

I wanted to hold you
I wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything, all right....

I'll always remember...
It was late afternoon...
In places no one would find...

In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

andy's house warming party

2008-07-27T14:39:00.004+08:00

me and lyd @ andy's room(:
haha! we laughed at the butt behind while reviewing this pic!!
GG(:
:D not bad aye?
-.=""

U're more matured than i tot u were(:

well, guess i just din see the qualities in you when i was with you..

人不都是这样子吗？要失去了才懂得去珍惜，才懂得东西的可贵。

anyway, back to updates(:

went to andy's place yesterday for his house warming party:D

there's elisha, tim, lydia, benmao, tiff, glenn, kelly, natty, jeremy, huikian, minyi, daph..(did i miss out anyone?) & a whole of ppl i dunno.hahha. anyway, it was fun(: i like staying out late. even if just stone outside. aso can. just like the feeling of staying out late.haha! perhaps its bcos i cun do tt often(: uh! and i like andy's cousin! forgot wat's her name! but she damn cute! damn funny as well! HHAHA! so small size aso! HAHA! she reminds me of joanne=X i dunno why! HAHAH!

shar couldn't make it:( sighh, wanna take pics yoo~~ nvm then, there's always other chances:D

ohoh, smth tt really amazed me yesterday! HAHA! i saw MIN YI'S sec 1 pic!! goodness luh! she look so innocent, so guai1guai1, so naive~ LOL!! look at her now!! 难怪大家都说女大十八变~~HAHA!! MINYI IS A CLASSIC EXAMPLE YOOO!!! HAHAH!!! k luh k luh, i better not say anymore. i think she will shout at me~ HAHA!-.=

& natty!! rawr!! pulled my bearbear away from me:( keep playing with it! punching it! duan to give me back:( sniff sniff** i swear i was damn heartpain can!!! RAWR! natty, i'm going devour u!! HAHAHA!!! my bearbear is my bao bei=D yeahyeah, my NUMBER 1 BAO BEI=DD

so sang karaoke at andy's place until 2 plus am! damn siao luh! i think i've officially being blacklisted by his family members for successfully disturbing them(: LOL. so paiseh~~

i hope tt TMR's performance will turn out well!!=XX i pray!! damn scared! argh! FRIENDS, support me yo!!! it will be at the canteen 1230-130(: lunch time(:

okok, so back track a little. around 8 plus yesterday, when i was alr at andy's place, siqi called me luh! initially i tot she wanted to bomb me with some random stuff again! HHAHA! & indeed, it really some random and quite stunning stuff. haha.

sigi: OMG! u wun believe it RINA SOON! i think i saw_____ at MAC!!

me: huh?

siqi: I SAW ____ AT MAC!!

me: uh! ok......

siqi: and i think____ recognise me! ____ keeps looking at me!!! like starring!

me: huh? orh...

siqi: and i saw ur mom this morning!! she....

me:(interrupt) yea! i know! bcos of u i got scolding from her luh! she scold me for not studying!! see la~~make me cun go for zone service today!

siqi: kk, anyway____walk off alr. i din see____ until ____left.

me: ouu, ok..

siqi: i'm going to mug alr! SEE YOU!

me: alrite!! BYEBYE TAKE CARE! SEE YOU SOON!!:D

wat a small world. hahah. this is NOT the first time i received such calls bout____.LOL. go figure if u must(: its obvious luh-.="

i think these are really obstacles tt i've gotta overcome before really declaring i'm OVER IT! sighhh...... pray tt it wun be a long way to go for me man:((

ok, moving on, i was bored at home yesterday. cos i was being banned to go for zone service~ and i din felt like studying, so hohoho, i started dolling my dog up:DD weee~~ pics above! take a good look at it yo!:D HAHAH! i think its not bad actually:D

finally, studies! man! i really really hate studying! rawr! killing me man! just when everyone is forcing themselves to study even harder and starting to love study even more, here i am declaring tt i really have NO passion at all in studying~ GRRR! howhowhow! prelims is round the corner! & the more i procrastinate, the more i'm jeopardising the chances of me getting DECENT grades~:( note: decent isn't excellent* GG LUH!!!:( life sux this way u see it!:(

i need batteries to motivate me to study! :(

i need my old batteries back actually!:(

though it will nv happen:(

i hate econs, chem maths, physics, GP:((

sighh, press on Rina!!!!

GO!GO!GO!!!

godbless(:

semi slc dinner

2008-07-26T00:11:00.003+08:00

guess some ppl just dun understand the meaning of copyright-.="

goodness, do i have to repeat myself?! rite, perhaps for this ONE LAST TIME! STOP COPYING MY LINGO! HAVE SOME SENSE OF ORIGINALITY YOOOO!!!

this kinda ppl really sux to the core. thay think they r popular, they think they got alot of friends, they think everyone likes them? LOL! bet all of ur so called friends are merely acquaintances... sad life rite? uh huh...(:

but u know wat, its ok. u can copy me forever if u like(: just let me set the trend, u can follow as long as u want i dun mind. bcos i dun mind u being a copycat! i'm nice(: haha. and simply bcos this is just some minor minor things tt i dun even bother to give a damn bout it. well, alrite, maybe i'll talk bout it, BUT thats when i'm bored. nth else better to do. so decided to BITCH(: get me? thank you! so u can copy for all i care(:

see, this is wat i mean bout small small things like this can just heck. no need to be too serious bout it. 再怎么说, 以前也是朋友一场, no need to be so calculative luh. so things just take and give luh. 还是别让你的生活这么难过吧~~忍一时风平浪静，退一步海阔天空。first thing to do in order to build a successful friendship is to learn how to compromise yo! noone is perfect. just like how u dun like others' this and this that and that, others may not like ur this this this that that that as well~~ see my argument? HAHA!(:

so conc: chin chai abit(: heck luh~:D

anyway, updates for today. went for a "semi-slc" dinner. though initial plan was supposed to be induction. but well, some cock ups here and there. so in the end bo bian next time lorr~ this kinda small things aso doesn't matter one luh~ cos miscom is like so common so understandable. just think from the bright side(: at least get to bond with my slc ppl again:D yeah!!

today is a rather happy day yo!:D though the clique changing frequency is rather high recently. but heck luh, wats urs will be urs. wats not will nv be. i can be a loner, i dun care(: cos i dun think i will(: even if i hang out with u guys, u guys are just mere acquaintances to me. not big deal actually. but one thing i have to say(: & yes, IN MY BLOG! i hate your sucky attitude towards me! not like i've ill-treated u or so~ goodness, i cun believe tt i actually treated u so well in the past. offering to help u book consultations in the past.. and this is wat i get back from u. ur mood swings and buay song attitude! man, u ought to do some serious reflections! i think i would have given u a tight slap if i was a little more bitcher and narrow-minded~ i think i will curse and swear~ HA! but oh wells, again. i've changed(: GROWN UP! so i really heck bout all these small small things~ i rather ppl owe me favours than to i owe others favours(: if u get wat i mean and know who i'm refering to(: well, actually not many ppl will know(: cos this one is really quite challenging. someone u might nv tot of(: so once again, its is not an obligation to read my blog. if u dun like it, get lost then(: i'm more than happy:D hmmm.... maybe i should consider making this GET OUT link just like wat ibrahim has in his blog! damn imba! HAHAHAH!!!

i like the ppl i'm hanging out with NOW! be it IN CLASS or OUTSIDE SCH(: i praise God for having them by my side(: i really really appreciate them:D they r my LOVELIES:DD

THINK OPTIMISTIC(: it helps, really helps:D

and uh, did i mention tt i find shin ee damn cute and damn funny?! HAHHA!!! MEATBALL=XX

finally, i'm glad tt we're better now(: at least we all know we r trying our best to break this invisible ice wall and learn how to get out of our comfort zone.. i hope it wil continue to progress and hopefully end everything with smth good(: HUGE BIG WIDE SMILE AT LEAST(:

GODBLESS EVERYONE!!:D
LOVESLOVES:DD

DARK KNIGHTS

2008-07-24T22:21:00.002+08:00

woohoo~ i think today maybe the first day in my J2 life i leave sch sooo early!! HAHA! happy happy(:

went to watch dark knights with dwayne yo(:

oh my tian~ tt movie is cool! imbaly cool! goodness, batman so hot!!! :DD

hope tt u're feeling better yo!:D
no no no emo:D emo go away yo!!(: LOL

& i had SUBWAY! YEAH(:

Praise God for finding dwayne's wallet back(:

see, God is really there for us. though its not any miracle, but wat i'm trying to bring across is ask and u will receive(: as long as u have faith in God, He will bring u far. chances of God performing miracles on ppl is the same, it all voice down to how strong ur faith for Him is. so pls dun say things like praying for personal gain is useless. or praying in church is enough alr. anyone everyone can pray anywhere everywhere(: aye?

I LOVE GOD(:

PRAISE HIM(:

GODBLESS~

LOVESLOVES:D

road marshalling

2008-07-23T21:59:00.002+08:00

ok, first and foremost, I'M SO TIRED!!! ARGH!!!:(

i just wasted several hours of my precious time standing there as a dumb road marshall luh!-.=
WTH? but fortunately, i got valerie:D managed to catch up with her so so much! Thanks be to God. God is always fair:D i will miss her even more from now on yoo!:D oh, did i mentioned tt she damn cute can! HAHA! & she aso told me quite alot of stuff which i nv knew~ HOHOHO~~ thank u yo val!!:D yeayea, zipzip, its secret:DD

i'm starting understand the meaning of "jiu4 de4 bu4 qu4, xin1 de4 bu4 lai2"(: maybe its really time to move on. hahah! ok, i admit, i said tt like so many many freaking times le. but aso no improvement rite? but i think i start to xiang3 tong1 le(: he's not tt great afterall. much more better ones out there. hahha! or maybe should i put it another way round. he deserves better gals(: & i deserve MUCH better guys! HAHAHHA!!! fair enough alr rite? HAHA!! so pls pls pls~~ RINA PLS FORGET HIM YOOO!!!!! for this case, it shall be, remember the bad and forget the good:D hahah!!! eh, i'm serious! must be determine to do this!! i really damn scared i fickle minded! two minutes later keep thinking bout the good things again. then change my mind again!!! OH NO! i really really pray hard tt this wun happen again!!! pls pls pls~~~=XX

okok, so back to wat i was feeling today. haha

was feeling kinda empty after the marshalling-.=. noone to crap with i guess.-.=
waited for cousin then we practiced our song for the 2nd round(: hope we chose the correct song yo!!!! pray pray pray!!(:

but like wat i said, God is always fair(: he gave me this person to brighten up my day today!(: through msging! HAHAHA!

MATT yooo!!(:

he's really really funny luh!!!

for the dunno how many thousands times i'm sharing with u guys wat he told me~~(:

matt: Gimme a F! I! T! What do you get? It's fit not fat yo!haha..

nvm, i doubt u guys will find it funny. cos its too random and too extract.hahah!! ohwells, wo3 ming2 bai2 jiu4 ke2 yi3 le4(:

anyway, i was telling him bout the wIll run thingy.hahhaa!! tts y(:

conc: matt's really funny!!

trying to do my group VII tutorial now:X sianness~~:(

godbless~
lovesloves(:

2008-07-21T22:20:00.004+08:00

let me see, so y am i posting again?

think i'm posting out of anger i guess?

u know, i think everyone has different views and opinions.

just like how u feel and think may not be how others feel bout it too.

so my qns is, do u think u understand how everyone feels? and says who tt u r the only who is able to determine right and wrong? guess u dun even know wat u r feeling luh.

so being so friendly and then bitchy on the other side. if u get wat i mean. STOP BEING A TWO HEADED SNAKE!

stop being so fake. LOL!

if u dun wanna be truthful to even urself, i doubt u have any friends and will just continue to live in self-denial.

mind my words.

stop changing ur dp right b4 u wanna talk to me.
dun think i din see it.
I SAW EVERYTHING!

stop thinking tt only u urself know wat u r feeling
goodness, ur actions for the past few months have betrayed u.

FYI, alot ppl felt the same way long long ago alr. just tt we din bother to even discuss bout it.

stop thinking tt u r so popular and tt everyone likes u.
my god, stop copying my stuff and post in ur blog alrite?

have some sense of originality yo!

stop acting stupid.

stop viewing my blog if u r unhappy bout wat i'm posting.

AGAIN, its my blog.

so if u unhappy bout watever i've posted. pls get lost and get a life!

u r not obliged to read them!

NOT OBLIGED TO!

get it?

& FYI AGAIN, I'M SO PISSED WITH UR ACTING SKILLS.
goodnes, u should have gone to some drama sch to perfect ur acting skills luh-.=

if u think tt the person i'm refering is u, then so be it.

if u think its not, then go figure(:

but dun be a kaypo and ask around to find out who's tt person.
u'll know if u know.

dun know then forget it.

Hint: he/she may NOT be the person tt u r thinking of now(:

i doubt many will know who actually. cos NOT POPULAR!-.=

still thinking bout u

2008-07-21T21:23:00.005+08:00

time really does make ppl blur i supposed.

so i was thinking bout u. yup, still thinking. thinking bout all the things i can bout u actually. all the minor minor and major major things.

then it kinda came to a point whereby somehow i see u as a fairytale character. not longer someone real. goodness, i think even myself dun even knew i had this thinking long long long ago luh. until i saw ur name some where. suddenly, i reminded myself tt u r actually a person who really existed. goodness. i guess i dun even know who am i alr. and i dun even know wats right and wats wrong alr. guess i'm losing the world alr.

wats wrong with me yooo....

thanks for being apathetic.
thanks for staying indifferent.

someone guide me out of this and tell me wat to do

y am i still grabbing hold of this empty hope when i myself know it nv existed and its nv going to exist?

someone wake me up and bring studies into my mind.

let studies blast my mind and make me forget eveything else.

moving on really ain't as easy as it seems to be.

gosh, u can call me dumb for all i care.

haha, i dun think i'm alrite.

=X

guide me out of this..

wanna know how i feel?

ask me& i'll tell u more

=XX